jengo1971
not happy with myself
Jul 04, 2011
I have been having more cheat/free days lately and it scares the hell out of me! Like what I've read others say, "I'm going back to my old habits." A bite is never enough for me. I have one after the other until my tummy hurts. No vomiting but an upset stomach for sure. What the hell is wrong with me??????????I have done so well so far on this journey. I weigh less than I have in over 14 years. I wear L top/12 or 14 bottom. I started at 233 and now weigh (on a good day) 149ish. I still need to lose 30 pounds. I don't want to be a failure.
4th of July bbq sent me over the edge once again today. ENOUGH DAMN IT!!! I am making a commitment to myself RIGHT NOW. For the entire month of July I will......#1 eat only planned meals each day with at least 70 pro/40 or less cabs. #2 drink at least 64 oz/QD #3not weigh myself until the last day of the month. Not. even. once. and take measurements tomorrow #4 continue to work out each day 40 min on treadmill and 5-10 min on bike #5 begin planning wt training to start in a couple weeks and for sure by Aug 1st
NO DAMN CHEATING UNTIL I REACH GOAL!! I am bigger (no pun intended) than crap food. I would like to lose 8 pounds this month. Goal wt for July 31st.........141 pounds. We shall see.....
