Jen F.
Weight Day
Oct 27, 2006
My new weight is 247.9 (clothed). That is 51.5 pounds lost which is 17.2% of my highest body weight lost. I'm glad for that. My BMI has almost dropped 10 points. I'm wearing a size 18/20 top and 24P pants. I can fit in 22. When I started, I was a 26/28 on top and bottom.
1 month Post-Op
Sep 12, 2006
I just came from my 1 month post-op appointment. I am down 28.1 pounds with a prediction that I will reach 30 by the 15th. Dorothy told me that averaging 1 pound a day in the first month is very good. I have lost 5 inches from my waist and 4 inches on my hips. I'm pleased, but not happy. I thought I would be 40 pounds down by 1 month. Dorothy said that was unrealistic. I never really thought about inches lost, so there's no expectation there to disappoint. I'm kind of a goal driven girl and I disappoint myself easily. I asked if I can expect to keep losing 30 pounds per month and I was told no. I didn't ask how much I will lose then, because I was pretty sure she wouldn't have given me an answer anyway. Well, surgery is working. For sure. It's measurable.
I've kind of been lead to believe that this is when it starts to snowball though. As I can eat more variety and continue to lose weight, I'll feel better. The water will get easier to drink. The sizes will drop. I'll have more energy. Bring it on because for the second day in a row, my butt is dragging and I'm dehydrated.
Surgery Day
Aug 15, 2006
Pre-Op Physical
Aug 08, 2006
I had a
The liquid diet is ok as long as I keep drinking the CIB. If I wait too long and start to get hungry, it's like a caged animal has been set lose and no one knows if it has rabies or not. Yesterday I really started getting nervous. It's not the procedure, I know that will be ok. It's the voluntarily walking in there knowing they will knock me out and cut into me. It just seems so wrong and unnatural. This is my first surgery. Hopefully any after will be easier to tolerate. I only have one week to go. Six more days of CIB. One day of clear liquids and bowel prep and I'm there.
Two weeks to go
Aug 01, 2006
I've got some updating to do! I had my appointment on 7/19 and got a surgery date of 8/15. It wasn't nearly as bad as I had feared.
I've kind of been a bit stunned since then and only in the last day or so does it feel like I'm actually doing anything about surgery.
Yesterday I started doing a modified liquid diet. I drink Carnation Instant Breakfast (CIB) for meals (10oz skim milk +1 packet) and water the rest of the time. I'm drinking my water from a 2 ounce plastic cup so I'll get used to drinking in small amounts. I've discovered that tossing it back like a shot isn't comfortable so I'm sipping it. I've also discovered that I really have to have a lot of those little shots to get un-thirsty when I've gone too long without drinking. When I have a clock visable, I try to drink 2oz every 15 minutes which is getting me 8oz an hour. I did that really well yesterday and had to pee all day! I don't think I've ever been so hydrated.
I decided I'll allow myself to eat food for dinner if I must, but otherwise I'll have CIB. We had a company event last night and I had a chicken sandwich, baked beans and a Coke. 1. It didn't taste that good, 2. I got there two hours late and was so hungry by that point I was really cranky. It wasn't worth it. I'm having a quiet night tonight so I plan on sticking to the CIB.
I'm having all the same issues everyone has when doing the liquid diet. I smell foods from other people when I'm at my desk at work, there are people around me discussing snacks - ice cream bars vs. rice krispie bars. I'm suddenly VERY aware of how much food is discussed. I'm not really tempted to breakdown and have some because I'm drinking my CIB before I get too hungry, it's just a strange feeling to know I won't. I must be doing OK because I even watched a show on cakes and didn't get a hankering. The water and the CIB seem to be doing it, but it doesn't taste as good as somethings smell.
Tomorrow
Jul 18, 2006
My consult is tomorrow and I'm not really looking forward to it. I talked to Barb yesterday. Svendson is booking surgery in September. I could wait 2 more months before I have surgery. I'm so disappointed, it's indescribable.
Surgery Consult Scheduled
Jul 05, 2006
I'm approved and my surgery consult is in 2 weeks. I'm this weird combination of excited, inspired and antsy. One of the realities of being in this process so long is watching all the people who've passed me by and had surgery before me. Fifty pounds in 11 weeks, 120 pounds in 8 months etc, etc, etc. I can barely conceive it in my mind, but yet I'm watching it happen.
Wholly shite I'm approved.
Jun 28, 2006
Still Waiting
Jun 27, 2006
Not much has happened as far as progress towards my approval despite calling all parties involved daily. The person who had my paperwork took PTO with it sitting on her desk. Instead of being the decision maker, she was just paperwork flunky, so now I'm waiting for the decision maker(s) to get their act together. The expediting was cancelled because my condition is not life-threatening. My HR is fine with not expediting and defends the medical insurance company. I got my boss involved. She's been wonderful, a great advocate for me, but still nothing has changed. I went to visit Farrah to get her mind off of looking for her furniture and my waiting for approval. I really thought that everything would be settled by the time I came back to work yesterday. It wasn't and I had a complete meltdown. I cried for a total of 2 or 3 hours yesterday, most of it at work, which doesn't do well for the resume.
Today, I've got a lump in my throat and tears waiting to come if I think about it too much. I feel weighted down and I'm having a hard time acting normal - planning a shower for my coworker who's getting married, complimenting my team lead on her new hairdo.
When I got my boss involved, I told her I was at my end. She seems to think it was a figure of speech, but it's not. I'm really tapped out on enthusiasm, positive thinking and fighting for what was promised me.