Bourngorno Bellas and bellos, well a year ago at this time i was sleeples i couldnt get any sleep i was going thru a range of emotions..i was having my surgery in the morning..i had resarched about the surgery and finally decided to do something about my weight. physically and mentally i felt horrible..i felt like i was a prisoner in my body and years of failure on weight loss plans this was my last hope of living a normal life. no matter hoe much jewlery i bought and clothes i ordered from catalogues i still never felt good about myself..when i was obese i was very clean on my body not that im not now, i had great gromming habits , never wore a stained shirt out in public but i was still misrable and can we talk about the physical pain..i wasnt out of bed 5 minutes and i was taking advils for aches and pains..i always had a back ache, headache, swollen feet and hands..i was on high blood pressure pills and borderline diabetes..i was a mess and if i didnt lose any weight id probally be dead in a few years from this discease..i had to have a hystrecomy when i was 39 because i had fibroid tumors all related to obesity ..dam i hate that word..i never wanted to leave my house because i was enbaressed and i hated the way people would stare at me werever i went..for years i dint live and boy am i making up for it now !..i can actually walk a few miles and not wine im tired, i can go to curves and workout and not say im hurting, i clean my house like a nurotic now and to be honest i dont mind cleaning my house because i have the energy to do it..iam just a happy person now and its like i see things for the first time..in the beggining im not going to lie to you it was hard i missed food but eventually i was able to eat again..i made mistakes with my eating .i still do once in a while but im human..thats life..i forget to chew chew chew or i eat to fast sometimes..i learned that certain foods will agree with me one day and another time it wont..i can laugh sneeze cough with out ant accidents, cross my legs, tie my shoes in the middle..i love mascara now i think i have about 30 tubes that i bought just to try out.,.i love preety girly girl underwear..i love shopping for clothes ..im a changed personalll together i have more self confidence and respect for myself..has my matrraige and family life improved hmmm whos to say sometimes people you love dont like changes but too bad after compromissing for years its my turn...im in a good place and thats not such a bad thing..i stated out at 328 pounds and i know weight 164 so i guess im a sucess..i pray to god i never gain my weight back ..im obese like a alcholic as far as im concerned i want to stay grounded and never forget were i came from..if any one ever needs my help please feel free to ..i want to give back what has been giving me..
i was verey lucky i had a wonderful support sytem with my freinds and family love ya guys..i also have made some wonderful freinds here at amos and i wouldd like to thank them for the support and freindship i have made with them..first of all to my sista slork janine i love ya gf..you are the best!..cheryl in ct , stacy o, joy , sharon leach, sharon nevea, janey in the islands, kim o, karen , teresa,. barbara, sandy, wanda, love you guys i value your freindship..and to any new freinds that i will make..clink glassess clinking together salute ! well i have gone on i like to refelect on sally s..up in heavan watching us all..teena adler your determination is amazing and so is everyone else here on this board..what a sister and brother hood we have here we are from diffent parts of the world, races, religions and were all in this together..well thank you from the bottom of my heart for this past year its been one hell of a journy..lifes a ride enjoy it and god bless america watch her troops..happy re birthday to me ..arrivedecci bellas and bellos..(((hugs))) smiles love ya all..JoAnn