Joy_72
I have always been FAT! Since about 4 years old I remember being "chubby"...by six I was FAT and it was on from then on out! I have found comfort in food...especially chocolate :D...since I was a very small child. My grandparents had a farm and we (My Mom and I) lived with them. So we always had a huge dinner. I think thats prolly where it started to really get outta hand.
I was pretty active as a child..we were not allowed to sit in the A/C and watch TV all day or play video games. We played in the woods and by the river, etc. We usually didn't come back for lunch but would pig out later on that evening at dinner... while watching Dukes of Hazard or Hee Haw..lol
I remember my Great Grandmother and Great Aunts would always say..."Joy ..you have the prettiest FACE." BUT...there was always that IF you would lose some weight. Well at that age..around 7..maybe I learned that I was ok..but not quite good enough...or at least thats how I felt.
I kept on eating like a fat rat...cause it felt good to me.
As I got older I learned to cook. I liked it. If it made me feel good ...I wanted to make everybody feel good. My Mom worked alot and I would surprise her with simple dinners sometimes during summer vacation. One year I even bought groceries at the store on her "account" lol to make her a birthday dinner...complete with a pie. :D Funny now looking back but she was a little ticked at that time ...but the great dinner helped to smooth things out! Its a great memory looking back. My sister and me running around all day trying to make every detail perfect. lol
I have always cooked since then.
I have since had 3 beautiful children..Corey is 16, Alex is 10, and my KatieBug is 7. :) They are the sunshine in my life!
In 1998 I fell and hurt my back and never been the same since. The Drs say the only thing to help is to lose weight so I have..then gained double back. I am in pain a great deal of time. I want so bad to be able to play with them again...(which is how I fell lol...but it was so much fun..we were playing tag in the yard)...Just to be able to bend over without severe pain would be nice.
This is a choice I have made (to have WLS) for myself. I want to feel some relief from this pain. I have always been really big so this is going to be very different for me. I am ready for it. I want to feel healthy and alive again! Thats all! :)
