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I made it...it was a long, arduous journey, I am a bit battered and bruised, a little shaken, but I made it.

Onederland!! I weighed 199 this am, I am 2 weeks and 2 days from surgery.

I haven't weighed this "little" since 2000, when my work group decided to track our weight and have a pool for losses. I am so excited, and humbled that this process is happening for me 

AT LONG LAST...
TO God goes the glory, thank you!

well, I guess I pushed myself too much..I went to the office today to check on messages, and do my banking. Then to have my nails done, but they were busy so I had to go back...went to Walmart to do some errands and completely ran out of steam. Didn't go back and have my nails done,,,
Tom I have to o to Auburn to dentist and counseling. Too much for one day??

Ok, I am  two weeks out, now.  I am going to have DH do some pics, depending on what I see I will post them.  I am not seeing much but others do. In my face, my chest, my arms...not my belly which will be my nemisis I guess. I hate that part of my body. It makes my sizes bigger, I can't see my feet. I just really am all set with belly fat. 

I am down 34.2 lbs since December. I am so proud of me, and the best part is I will never be here again.
I am 2 # from onederland. I am hoping to hit that by this week sometime.

I am trying prueed food, eh...scrambled egg, eh, mashed poatoes, OH YEAH love them...figures doesn't it?? My fav saying was always I never met a potato I didn't love, lives on. mashed with skim milk and no butter, yup still love em. I will work out the portions, cause right now, I am not eating enough of much, am still under 500 cal a day so no worries.

I booked a flight, used my Jet Blue points to visit my dgt and grandson the end of the month. I am so excited to see them, haven't seen grand since Dec when he was born, need to pick him up and get a good Mimi sniff, ya know, baby smell. I have such a hard time that he is not closer, if it were up to me, I selfishly would have him next door with the grandgirls..oops wrong fam, but still the other side of my house has room for another home...

i am all over the place tonight...putting off pics I suspect...
Ah well...camera phobic...I think that happened around 160#...

I survived...my first sneeze, yes, it was tough, i never really saw it coming, but all of a sudden I knew, I had to sneeze.  SO I did, and I didn't die, or split anything open, or cry, 

Although, I did cry on my way to the hospital yesterday to have post-op blood work done!! I was so scared they would poke and poke, but George was good, and got it almost in one so that was done.  Oh and I drove myself!! First drive!!

Today is the last day of the lovenox shots YaYYYYYYYYYYY! I am so glad I don't have to do that any omre...one left, tonight.
Nothing is really bothering me as far as protein shakes. I tried some cream of chix soup with Beneprotein added, filled me up pretty quickly. so yummy, tasted like...home.  oops gotta watch that, that's what got me here in the first place! Food doesn't feel like anything!!! Food just is...I am putting the feeling to it.

Ok I am a week out, and have lost the hideous water weight of surgery and I am finally down 1.5 lbs since before surgery, so that is great, I feel like today is the beginning. It is getting to be ok, my schedule is: up at 7:30-8, take a shower, dress, do my hair and maybe some makeup-hey mascara at least!-then previcid, vitamin, lovenox shot, then protein shake. Water on the side...So by then, I am pretty pooped...
On to the web, see what everyone else is doing today...
My new schedule before work resumes, is to walk in am and after DH gets home, so once with me and maybe later with my puppy-she pulls too much now-owie-, and once with him. So 40 minutes that way...

I am steeling myself to go have post-op blood work done, I just can't see myself deliberately getting stuck again. no no not yet...they have trouble hitting a vein and oh no not yet...
just asked #2 son to take me this afternoon...we shall see if I feel like it...can you say cluck cluck cluck instead of honks!!

I mean the actual surgery...I gained 9 # in the hospital, if I hadn't read about that on the forum think I would have been a little POed. I have lost 6 of that so far. Still feel bloated, achy sore.

Yesterday was just a weird day over all. Went to bed and had kind of dream hallucinations-want to get off the pain stuff-was restless all night. DH said it sounded like the whole zoo was awake in my stomach all night. I tried some pureed chix soup and not sure it worked out so well...
Funny, precious phone call at 444am-"drunk dialed" by my dgt and son-in -law to be, they were lying in bed talking.He wanted to talk to me about how much he loves my dgt,  my grandson, how much he wants to be like my dh and me-loviing each other after all of these years...36!!
EVen tho he was a little high, I loved what he said, and that he wanted to say it to me...Plus, he is pretty sure I am going to be a hottie when the weight comes off.  Who wouldn't love that!! LOL
So today will be better than yesterday, I am going to try and figure out some food stuff today, don't think my NUT is going to be too impressed with my numbers or choices...
Plus, my DH will be home all day and that makes me feel safe and ok.

I am writing to me for me...
You did the right thing. It is a bit frightening right now cause you are alone today, with your fear, so remember all the reasons again...
1. Sis and brother died 10 and 14 months ago
2. Hypertensive
3.Hyperlipodemia
4.Can't run a lick
5. hiking with the grands  ah nope
6. Embarassed to the point of not going if i want to get in my kayak in front of anyone
7. hating, hating not having nice clothes-I would rather have 2 great, tailored beautiful outfits than a hundred big things with x's all over just cause they fit.
8.Kalie
9. Jordan
10 Jackson
and their parents
11 My Ben needs me
12. more more time with my love 0f 36 years
13 not swimming, my fav best in the world thing to do

so, my dear girl, buck up, drink up, and smile  you have been given such a gift. Be grateful.

My daughter in law stayed with me, we had a great day.Watched My Red Neck Wedding marathon...oh my...I am a little worried there are people in the world like some of them,.,, Yes the liquid lortabs make me sleepy but CMBC encourages you to stay up for 12 hours sipping to keep up with fluids. So today was a little tough, taking pills, crushing pills, giving myself a shot, trying to keep track of pain stuff,and fluids sip sip sip. I am disappointed in the Unjury chicken soup, but I wrecked it with hot water I think...I am still a little fuzzy. I have pain when I try to get up, but went for a walk with the dogs(and dgt-in-law) to stretch out a bit, that felt good. 
Don't get on the scale the day you get home from hospital, I think there is somthing funky going on with gas and healing fluids and stuff cause I gained 9 lbs after not having anything by mouth for 3 days, now, about those iv fluids...I am staying off the scales!! Ah, a large flock of geese were spotted in lewiston maine monday, circling the CMMC. I soooooooooo appreciated all the cards, and comments to the forum. Thank you all so much and don't stop now.

I have to be at the hospital at 9:45 am on Monday, and surgery is scheduled for 11:45am...I hate waiting, wish it was first thing in the am but this will be ok. 
I am bringing, my ipod, chapstick, robe and slippers, maybe smelly good soap if I get to shower before I go home and little shampoo and a book. Anything else?