kenda11
People call me tiny and petite
Apr 16, 2009
I hear this alot, people call me tiny, people call me petite. Yet, I still feel the same as I did when I was big. Mentally I will always be a big girl. Even though I can wear clothes in the children's department. How did I get this way. I think back to when I had the surgery done and I was so wanting this more than anything. A quick fix - for someone to wave their magic wand and all the fat on me to disappear and I would be this thin, beautiful person standing there. And yet - I can't remember much about how it happened, only that it happened so fast. Like a child growing up - where did the time go. How did this happen. I still have a hard time with people calling me small. I feel ashamed as if I don't deserve the compliments. It is not easy to loose this much weight. I had issues before, my feet hurt, winded, could not walk a flight of steps, self esteem issues, could not find clothes that fit and then they were tight. Now I have a different set of problems. My butt hurts because of the bones when I sit. I am cold, I can't find clothes small enough. I outwalk and can keep going longer than my husband and kids. The food part is now not even a big deal at all. I made a life change and I am happy with it and I don't regret that I can't eat sugar or have a cocktail with the girls. I would rather not feel like I have the flu for an hour so I just don't do it. I think I have found my weight that my body is happy with. 128. I have been this now for months. I went down to 126 and then back up to 128 and now I have stopped. I still weigh every day. I think it is just something that lets me know that I am not going to let my weight get out of control again. So - I guess I will now be in the small petite size 2 department for the rest of my life. Still can't get over this.... still can't believe it happened to me. still don't think I am as small as people say. Yet, when I look at my clothes - not on me... but in the closet - they are small. But I still can't see it.
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About Me
Summerfield, NC
Location
22.7
BMI
Surgery
09/26/2007
Surgery Date
Jun 07, 2007
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