Reflection...

Nov 08, 2012

Now that I seem to hit my body's goal of around 131-135 lbs, I look at myself in the mirror and think that I can get used to this. I'd like the weight to shift just a little from my middle to my hips and chest, but I realize you can't have everything! LOL I'm going to the GI Specialist to determine what is wrong with my digestive system. I had another episode of hard stomach last night. The weird thing about it was I hadn't even eaten anything when I noticed it. I'd just walked in the house from work and it felt really tight. I'm not sure what is going on there. Overall, I still feel good. Portion size is still about what a 5 year old would eat but it seems to be enough for me. My only concern is that when they figure out what's wrong with me, I will be able to eat more and the weight will start coming back. I have to admit, I am wasting money at the gym since no one in the family uses it. The children have their activities and school work and since I go home first, I don't want to go on the other days. I need motivation! Pray for me please! In the meantime, I thank God for all of the progress. I feel good. I'm not worried that I didn't get a job because of my weight. I'm not worried that people are looking at me funny or talking about me because of my weight. However, I still feel like I'm the fat girl, even though it's been 19 months since surgery. Wonder when that feeling will leave? Oh well, it helps to remember where you've come from! Be encouraged!!!

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