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Hey OH Family,

Its been a while since I last posted. I have been kinda discouraged. I am still making attempts to loose weight while waiting for approval for WLS.  A few months back I started something called the six week body makeover diet. Well I lost about 15 lbs with that one then I began to fall under the pressures of eating again with that little bit of success. I think it happened when I ran out of meal ideas. I must say I felt really good after the first three days of that one. Unfortunately, I have had a series of family problems from income issues to a runaway. For one of them, I've been able to maintain. But when the runaway thing happened, it was such a suprise that I found my self eating before I could even realize it. I started off trying to eat what I thought was healthy, then I crossed over to those things that are really heavy in calories. Well, it did satisfy me for the moment. When the runaway returned I found it hard to get back on track. I guess you could say then I began to eat in celebration of my teens return from his week excursion. I have gone back to trying the calorie counting, (my doc's idea of weight loss) and I lost 10 lbs. Well I decided to take things a bit further to cut out TV viewing. Well, being laid off, that and food were the things that helped me make through the day. Now I must say I am at a lost. 2 weeks ago, I fell down the stairs and haven't been able to do any exercise. Guess what, doing an 1800 calorie diet doesn't work for me without the walking. So here is where I am, no exercise, no weight loss, no tv. Wondering why don't I just eat the things I want if there is no weight loss? Boy, if I could get this thing with my mind and emotions, just maybe I can have some success. I realize now that this time delay with the surgery is for me to further prepare my mind, because I will always have some kind of issues. Doc, says I can start back walkin next week. I find my self spending a lot of time in my room crying lately, about all that I am trying to change. I feel like I am alone, and I feel like a failure. Seems like I can't even get 25 lbs off own my on.  I really need some encouragement from someone who understands and maybe some advice too.

This is a wonderful video about who we are to God. Click the link below - ITS A DON'T MISS VIDEO.

http://www.tangle.com/view_video?viewkey=849dc7c803281df74bb2

 

And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."

2 Corinthians 12:9a  

“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior” (Isaiah 43:1-3).

“For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11).

   
I went to the doctor today and did not get good news. Posponed again until the first of Oct before my doc will send in final papers for Peachtree to request approval for WLS. It seems that in the midst of him getting rid of a few employees, I was given misinformation. I was told my 3 month diet would be monitored with his office. All of a sudden when I go back for the final visit, he says, " No you must do a diet program with a dietation. i asked him that from the beginning. At that time he only stated I needed to see the dietation once, and that was what I did. Months later, here we are again.  I have decided to get a new PCP. My insurance advises me to wait until I get my approval though. They said a new PCP may make me start the entire process over again.  That may not be a bad idea. This current guy is kind of a JERK.  So that will be my year anniversary of making this big decision. I can truley say I have researched, studied, and I have my mind made up.
This is truely, truely my test of determination and patience.  Why,, Why.......?????
Oh I look forward to the day when I can see my feet and not have pain in my knees and ankles because of my stomach that looks 10 months pregnant.
This week I will be meeting with my new wls group in my area. I hope we can be a source of encouragement to one another.
Lord help me to accept the things that I can not change, and the power to change the things that I can. And the wisdom to know the difference......(I think thats how it goes)......

PEACE

Ok OH family, 

For a while I have been contemplating going natural with my hair.  A lot of my friends and family have done so, and I love the look and the freedom they have.  So, today I have decided to embrace my natural look and join the sisterhood of the GOOD HAIR GALS.  I was a bit nervous afterwards, got my braws arched, some new makeup, big earrings... and I was ready to let the world meet the new me......  I'll post some pics on the side.....

Well summertime is here and the children are all at home.  Besides being the taxi, I have been walking and swimming.  I am up to walking a mile every other day. When I can I do everyday (not too often). I am also swimming on that same day, well actually I can't swim but I get in the pool and do some types of exercise the I found online.  Its actually less strenuous on the knees.  I hurt my knee a few weeks ago when my personal fitness trainer (my 13 year old) instructed me to do squats.  WRONG MOVE... Ever since then my knee gives out, but I keep on keeping on. Hey in case someone wants to do scrunches or sit ups they are much easier and with more effect in the pool. Just hold onto the outer sides of the pool and bring both legs up together to touch the wall inside the pool as high up as you can, and feel the burn.  Also get someone to accompany you to the pool and get in the water shoulder high and race from one side of the pool to the other (for me about 6 times) backwards and forewords. Who said exercise couldn't be fun  .  Oh no I don't wear a swim suit YET!!!!!!!

Kelly

NOW  faith, is the substance of things hoped for;
the evidence of things not seen.

Thanks OH family for all of the words of encourgement. Especially the word of God. That always works for me..

	Matthew 6:25-34
		Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
		Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
		And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
		And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
		Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, [shall he] not much more [clothe] you, O ye of little faith?
		Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
		(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
		But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
		Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day [is] the evil thereof.

Hey OH family,

Until now I think I have kinda kept my spirit up.  I am usually not an easy person to get down and I know that things happen (or don't happen) in God's timing.  After all, I asked Him to guide my steps, and He is... Ok, so help me (someone) with this attack of depression as I watch everyone get their  dates and this has been a progress for me since October 08.  I think the thing that is really getting me down is that I am having problems walking, I am having a lot of pain in my legs, hips and knees and this is new for me. The problem began about three weeks age.   It doesn't feel  like the kind that comes from exercising muscles. It feels likes its more in my joints.  I am loosing a few pounds from dieting now but it seems like the pain is increasing, it seems like my health is not getting better.  I look at my children and just wanna cry.  I really want to do all I can to be around for them and to be a better example for them about eating and taking care of their bodies. But,..... today I am really sad.  I really think this tool would be helpful for me and yet I am no closer to getting a date than I was in Oct of last year. I need some serious words of encouragement.