Penny S.
My 1st New Psych visit...
Apr 17, 2007
I met with the new Psychologist yesterday and I absolutly love her. I really enjoyed my hour with her. She is so warm and comfortable to be around. I see her again on April 30th (every other Monday). She even gave me homework to do for the two weeks until the next time I see her. I have to eat at the table and after I talk a bit of food.... I have to put my fork down between bites and take note of how I am feeling during this time while doing this.
I also have exciting news too..... I am in a new zip code (as I call it) I finally reached a weight below 400. WOOHOOO! I am so estatic about this and still moving forward to do the best I can. Dr. Foster's requirements for me this last visit was to have 2 psych appts and be below 400 in order to get a date and I am well on my way to getting and doing that so maybe I might have some news for myself and you all on the 1st... That would be nice...
Have a wonderful day.
((((Hugs)))))
I also have exciting news too..... I am in a new zip code (as I call it) I finally reached a weight below 400. WOOHOOO! I am so estatic about this and still moving forward to do the best I can. Dr. Foster's requirements for me this last visit was to have 2 psych appts and be below 400 in order to get a date and I am well on my way to getting and doing that so maybe I might have some news for myself and you all on the 1st... That would be nice...
Have a wonderful day.
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I forgot... I forgot...
Apr 15, 2007
I forgot to post that last Friday 4/6/07 I got a call from my surgeon's office and the woman that handles the insurance stuff in the office was doing a follow up on a mistake on my approval letter. She found out that I can go to the hospital that I want which is right across the street from the Surgeon's office and about 15 mins from me. I am so excited about this. I am having the filter put in before surgery for the blood cloting issue that may arise from surgery and not it can be done at the same time as my RNY instead of a few days before (1st surgery) and then have the WLS surgery (2nd surgery) and then another (3rd surgery) to remove the filter. I am sooo excited and wanted to share this with you all.
I am so glad that I have somewhere to journal all of this so that I can keep track of all the things that come up while going through this new journey. Whew! I would never remember all of this stuff later on.
I am still pluggin along here. I have my counceling appt tomorrow @1pm and I am pretty excited to meet her. She is such a sweet lady.
I will come and update soon.
Thanks again.
((((Hugs)))
I am so glad that I have somewhere to journal all of this so that I can keep track of all the things that come up while going through this new journey. Whew! I would never remember all of this stuff later on.
I am still pluggin along here. I have my counceling appt tomorrow @1pm and I am pretty excited to meet her. She is such a sweet lady.
I will come and update soon.
Thanks again.
((((Hugs)))
Keeping a Postitive Attitude...
Apr 14, 2007
I have been working hard here and walking everyday 1-1.5 miles, eating good and I am also starting a new "Just for Today" journal. In this journal I am going to keep track of EVERYTHING. Everything from what I eat to, vitamins, moods, feelings, caleries and such, exercise and anything else I can think of. This will probably help later on too.
I am excited about going to my new Psychologist on Monday. She sounds sooo upbeat and positive. I will come in and jot down a bit about what went on and if I do like her. I am sure I won't have a problem though.
Well, I will continue to have a good attitude and plug along with my journey here and rid my bod of this excess weight that the surgeon want gone before surgery and exercise daily too.
Thanks again for visiting. Together we all stand. ;-)
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I am excited about going to my new Psychologist on Monday. She sounds sooo upbeat and positive. I will come in and jot down a bit about what went on and if I do like her. I am sure I won't have a problem though.
Well, I will continue to have a good attitude and plug along with my journey here and rid my bod of this excess weight that the surgeon want gone before surgery and exercise daily too.
Thanks again for visiting. Together we all stand. ;-)
((((Hugs))))
Positive Thinking...
Apr 12, 2007
Well, I made my Psych appts yesterday. I called a new Psychologist and she wasn't taking any new paitents but because she found out that I was having WLS she decided to squeeze me in every other Monday through August. I was really excited. WLS patients touch her heart and she wants to be there for them. I can't wait to meet her. She is so upbeet and positive and I can't wait to get started in my counceling that I have waited so long to get. I have been through a few things in my life and always wanted to know how to properly deal with them and also know that this is a good part as to the reason I have a weight problem in the first place. Although I thought I had forgiven the persons in my life that have caused me grief..... maybe it goes a bit more beyond that and I will now be able to find that answer out. I don't want to change necessarily anything that has happened to me in the past but I do know that I have become a stronger person because of it.
I also know that many people have mentioned to me about Dr. Foster and her ways. I have come to the conculsion that she really does have YOUR best interest at heart. Her bedside manor seems a bit harsh but maybe there is a method to her maddness too. When I called the new Psych, she asked me who my surgeon was. When I mentioned Foster... she laughed and said that she thought so. She knows how tough she is but I know that she is doing it for your own good. She knew that she even cancels surgeries due to not having the amount of weight off that she asks of you. This to sounds harsh but I do understand why she does it and I am okay with it. I just wish it was a little eaiser for me to get it off. I am working hard at it but watching everything that enters my mouth and walking 1-1.5 miles a day and will start back to water aerobics really soon too.
Well, I just wanted to keep my profile up-to-date so I came in to jot this down and and mention that I do understand my surgeon and I am glad that I have her on my side through my new journey in life. Thank you so much Dr. Foster...
I also know that many people have mentioned to me about Dr. Foster and her ways. I have come to the conculsion that she really does have YOUR best interest at heart. Her bedside manor seems a bit harsh but maybe there is a method to her maddness too. When I called the new Psych, she asked me who my surgeon was. When I mentioned Foster... she laughed and said that she thought so. She knows how tough she is but I know that she is doing it for your own good. She knew that she even cancels surgeries due to not having the amount of weight off that she asks of you. This to sounds harsh but I do understand why she does it and I am okay with it. I just wish it was a little eaiser for me to get it off. I am working hard at it but watching everything that enters my mouth and walking 1-1.5 miles a day and will start back to water aerobics really soon too.
Well, I just wanted to keep my profile up-to-date so I came in to jot this down and and mention that I do understand my surgeon and I am glad that I have her on my side through my new journey in life. Thank you so much Dr. Foster...
Feeling Better...
Apr 05, 2007
I am feeling better but just came to the conclusion that over this past 6-8 months, I have had many emotions and it all finally came to a head and I just had to let it out on Tuesday after my appointment. What better way to do it after getting bad new from your surgeon. I know that my day will be here before I know it and my new journey will begin. I also know that things do happen for a reason too so I will be more patient and keep chuggin along here at trying to lose the last 15 pounds that is necessary for surgery and try not to stress out over it.
Thank you all again for your help and support. It means the world to me.
(((((Hugs)))))
Penny
Thank you all again for your help and support. It means the world to me.
(((((Hugs)))))
Penny
My Dr's Appt. 4/3/07
Apr 03, 2007
I was soo sad today... I didn't feel my appt. went well. I didn't necessarily think I would get my date but thought it was a maybe at least... Nope! I was told that I have to have 2 sessions with a psychologist and a letter from her to and that I can't be put on the books until I am below 400 pounds. I am at 404.5, I lost 3 more pounds making it a 14.5 lbs lost now (to her records). I need to lost 30 before surgery. My highest was 427.8.
My heart sank to say the least. I have been doing a meal replacement for breakfast up until I started getting nauseated with every Whey Protein powder I tried. She is having me do Diet Carnation Instant Breakfast ~ Sugar Free now. I am only taking in 800-1000 cals a day. My weight loss is slow but I am still pluging along. All I eat is meat (protien) and veggies basically with lots of water. I am walking 4x a day for exercise too.
I thought I needed a hearing aid when I heard about needed 2 appts with a psychologist. When I did my psych eval (1/5/07), I was the one that suggested that I continue on with counceling that this was my plan all along since my insurance company just started covering counceling. She then asked if she could put this in her report to the surgeon... I said of course. Now it seems as though I have some big psych problem (well to me anyway). That is how she is making me feel) by having me do 2 appts and by getting proof that I went. What next? I am trying so hard to only feel like a failure. I have hand walked in all of my tests, X-rays, previous doctor's records, etc... and with each appt there is more and more that I have to do. Others just need a psych eval and nut. appt and they are on their way. I am just pretty down tonight and all this is just coming out and hard to handle. I sure hope tomorrow is a way better day. I am really ready for it to be over...
I will continue to work hard and do what I have to do and most of all try to keep my spirits up and know that she is a really good surgeon and is only doing this for my own good.
Thank you to all that have supported me. Sometimes we all need a little support and I am glad I have you in my little corner of the world to help make this journey a little bit easier. I send big hug to you all.
(((((HUGS)))))
Penny
My heart sank to say the least. I have been doing a meal replacement for breakfast up until I started getting nauseated with every Whey Protein powder I tried. She is having me do Diet Carnation Instant Breakfast ~ Sugar Free now. I am only taking in 800-1000 cals a day. My weight loss is slow but I am still pluging along. All I eat is meat (protien) and veggies basically with lots of water. I am walking 4x a day for exercise too.
I thought I needed a hearing aid when I heard about needed 2 appts with a psychologist. When I did my psych eval (1/5/07), I was the one that suggested that I continue on with counceling that this was my plan all along since my insurance company just started covering counceling. She then asked if she could put this in her report to the surgeon... I said of course. Now it seems as though I have some big psych problem (well to me anyway). That is how she is making me feel) by having me do 2 appts and by getting proof that I went. What next? I am trying so hard to only feel like a failure. I have hand walked in all of my tests, X-rays, previous doctor's records, etc... and with each appt there is more and more that I have to do. Others just need a psych eval and nut. appt and they are on their way. I am just pretty down tonight and all this is just coming out and hard to handle. I sure hope tomorrow is a way better day. I am really ready for it to be over...
I will continue to work hard and do what I have to do and most of all try to keep my spirits up and know that she is a really good surgeon and is only doing this for my own good.
Thank you to all that have supported me. Sometimes we all need a little support and I am glad I have you in my little corner of the world to help make this journey a little bit easier. I send big hug to you all.
(((((HUGS)))))
Penny
I was Approved, I was Approved....
Mar 14, 2007
WOOHOOO! I was approved. Monday night (3/12/07) I looked at the mail and saw something from the insurance company. I was sooo excited to see that it came sooo quickly. WOW! I am all ready now and just need my date. I have been working hard to lose the last bit I need to for surgery. It has been a struggle and my patients have been much better. I ran out of them a few months ago and had a few let downs that I let affect me but got over very quickly too. I know that this is all for my own good for a better, safer, surgery and recovery but that is just how I am... sensitive and I have had a hard time all my life changing that about me. I am who I am.... and that is sensitive....LOL.
My next appointment in on April 3rd and I will post then if and when my big day is.
Come on Kelly.... I am dying to hear when yours is girlfriend... CALL the office! LOL.
(((Hugs))))
Pen
My next appointment in on April 3rd and I will post then if and when my big day is.
Come on Kelly.... I am dying to hear when yours is girlfriend... CALL the office! LOL.
(((Hugs))))
Pen
Hugs to my Kelly Girl...
Mar 12, 2007
I just wanted to let everyone know how proud I am of my little Kelly girl. She has been very dedicated to pre-op stuff and has done all of her testing and retrieved all her results and lost the weight that was asked of her and will probably have her WLS date today if not sometime this week. She is a true inspiration. I love her to death and feel like I have known her for years when in fact I only met her for the first time at the beginning of February. We have chatted on PM for about a month before but then met up in person and she is a lifer for me. I am proud to have her in my little corner of the world and as a wonderful friend/WLS sister. Thank you again Kel for just being YOU.
Love ya girl and Congrats on all of your hard work.
(((((Hugs))))
Pen
Love ya girl and Congrats on all of your hard work.
(((((Hugs))))
Pen
Met with the Surgeon on 3/6/07
Mar 08, 2007
Needless to say.... I was sooo bummed when I stepped on the scale only to see that I had only lost 4 pounds. I tried so hard and felt really, really good about my progress. The surgeons records show that I have lost 13 of the 30 pounds I need to lose before WLS. My higest (just before I called her) was 427.8 and I am now 407. I have lost 20 pounds and I am actually estatic about that. Everytime I diet, I am only able to lose 18 at the most and I have passed that. I am soo happy and proud of myself even though nurves of having WLS has played a roll in losing. I will take it...LOL.
I love my surgeon, don't take me wrong and I also was not looking for sympathy nor was I looking for her to bend the rules to book me either, but I had mentioned to her about my highest weight and where I am now and she just shot me down and made me feel worse that I did about only losing 4 pounds. I was trying to take the positive out of the whole thing because I was in the dumps about the whole thing and I thought she could have at least said that I was on the right track and left it alone... My heart was broken to say the least.
We discussed that with my medical comorbidities, they play a factor of me losing weight and that I totally need exercise to do the trick and need to put in place a plan NOW, before surgery so that I am well into it and keep it going post-op. I love water aerobics and plan to go back to it and also walking. I don't care for the gym atmosphere so I will stick to what I enjoy doing as that will keep me going....
I do have to say that I got over being bummed very quickly after I left. I realized what is done is done and just move on. I came home and checked the OH boards and realized that they submitted my paperwork for Insurance approval. Something good did come from my appointment and I concentrated on my dissapointments and not the good. I am so excited that I am just another step closer to this whole process. I did lose and I am getting approval too... WOOHOO!
I have come to realize that Dr Foster means well and does not by and means of the word, sugar coat ANYTHING... I love that about her and her sternness about doing what you have to do to succeed. She does have a heart of gold and is very concerned over all her patients and I do know that all that has been said is for my own good but damn... she could have something encouraging instead of shooting everyone down. My girlfriend said that she does the same to her too. Every once in a while you do need this and even from your surgeon. It keeps you moving forward and keeping a positive outlook as you continue on doing your best to reach that goal. I decided to just keep my happy moments to myself and celebrate my joys with my family and friends so she doesn't hurt me like that anymore. I felt like a failure and I don't think anyone should feel like that going into this new journey.
Well, all is good and I see her on April 3rd next and hopefully I can be down to at least 20 pounds (according to her stuff) and that would even make me happy. Her bookings are about 6-8 weeks behind so that would put it in June sometime. My son is graduating in June so I may have to do it after graduation. I really wanted to be down before then but everything does happen for a reason... huh? :o)
((((Hugs)))
I love my surgeon, don't take me wrong and I also was not looking for sympathy nor was I looking for her to bend the rules to book me either, but I had mentioned to her about my highest weight and where I am now and she just shot me down and made me feel worse that I did about only losing 4 pounds. I was trying to take the positive out of the whole thing because I was in the dumps about the whole thing and I thought she could have at least said that I was on the right track and left it alone... My heart was broken to say the least.
We discussed that with my medical comorbidities, they play a factor of me losing weight and that I totally need exercise to do the trick and need to put in place a plan NOW, before surgery so that I am well into it and keep it going post-op. I love water aerobics and plan to go back to it and also walking. I don't care for the gym atmosphere so I will stick to what I enjoy doing as that will keep me going....
I do have to say that I got over being bummed very quickly after I left. I realized what is done is done and just move on. I came home and checked the OH boards and realized that they submitted my paperwork for Insurance approval. Something good did come from my appointment and I concentrated on my dissapointments and not the good. I am so excited that I am just another step closer to this whole process. I did lose and I am getting approval too... WOOHOO!
I have come to realize that Dr Foster means well and does not by and means of the word, sugar coat ANYTHING... I love that about her and her sternness about doing what you have to do to succeed. She does have a heart of gold and is very concerned over all her patients and I do know that all that has been said is for my own good but damn... she could have something encouraging instead of shooting everyone down. My girlfriend said that she does the same to her too. Every once in a while you do need this and even from your surgeon. It keeps you moving forward and keeping a positive outlook as you continue on doing your best to reach that goal. I decided to just keep my happy moments to myself and celebrate my joys with my family and friends so she doesn't hurt me like that anymore. I felt like a failure and I don't think anyone should feel like that going into this new journey.
Well, all is good and I see her on April 3rd next and hopefully I can be down to at least 20 pounds (according to her stuff) and that would even make me happy. Her bookings are about 6-8 weeks behind so that would put it in June sometime. My son is graduating in June so I may have to do it after graduation. I really wanted to be down before then but everything does happen for a reason... huh? :o)
((((Hugs)))
February Ponderings....
Feb 10, 2007
I met with Dr. Foster yesterday (2/9/07) and I was up a pound. I am proud to say that all of my blood labs are really really good. All within range and I am so proud of that because we worked hard as a family to eat healthier and it soooo paid off. I joined WW 4 years ago and maybe I failed at the diet itself... I gained knowledge of eating healthier and have the proof...
Anyway.... I didn't get a date because I had gained. I didn't mean to but I found that my nerves took me over with the anticipation of upcoming surgery that I found it hard to even be around myself. I did this exact same thing when I had my gallbladder out in 2001. I had a bad experience of being but under and now that dreaded wait... Hmmm. I told her my concerns and she helped me deal with it in a way that is much more barable... I am going to do an imagry class too, to try and help me overcome this before my surgery.
I see her again on March 6th and I will work on my weightloss so that I can be put on the books. I owe this to myself to move forward in my journey to become even more healthier than I have become.
I have everything done and collected except my Psych Eval. The Psychiatrist was sick for a while and she didn't get the evaluation out my surgeon yet but have a call into her. Once they receive that, they are going to put in for the approval. WOOHOO! a step ahead is a good thing huh? LOL Can't wait until I can relax my mind after it is all over. The surgeon doesn't like this mind frame because she thinks that I am setting myself up to fail but inside of me is in such turmoil that I just need to relax and focus on my journey when I get there... it works for me though. I don't think I will fail. I feel really determined and I DON'T WANT TO FAIL. I am not entering this with a FAIL attitude... ONLY SUCCESS.
Anyway.... I didn't get a date because I had gained. I didn't mean to but I found that my nerves took me over with the anticipation of upcoming surgery that I found it hard to even be around myself. I did this exact same thing when I had my gallbladder out in 2001. I had a bad experience of being but under and now that dreaded wait... Hmmm. I told her my concerns and she helped me deal with it in a way that is much more barable... I am going to do an imagry class too, to try and help me overcome this before my surgery.
I see her again on March 6th and I will work on my weightloss so that I can be put on the books. I owe this to myself to move forward in my journey to become even more healthier than I have become.
I have everything done and collected except my Psych Eval. The Psychiatrist was sick for a while and she didn't get the evaluation out my surgeon yet but have a call into her. Once they receive that, they are going to put in for the approval. WOOHOO! a step ahead is a good thing huh? LOL Can't wait until I can relax my mind after it is all over. The surgeon doesn't like this mind frame because she thinks that I am setting myself up to fail but inside of me is in such turmoil that I just need to relax and focus on my journey when I get there... it works for me though. I don't think I will fail. I feel really determined and I DON'T WANT TO FAIL. I am not entering this with a FAIL attitude... ONLY SUCCESS.
About Me
Pacifica, CA
Location
44.5
BMI
Surgery
06/25/2007
Surgery Date
Dec 25, 2006
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