Phew!

Jan 30, 2011

So I got out the scale today after avoiding for a week and down 6 lbs.  But, the reason I am writing is to vent about my loving mother. She always seems to say the wrong things. I know she means well but then she just puts a zinger out there. I was talking to her on the phone the other night and she says, "So where are you at? How much weight this month?" I said, "Well I havent weighed myself because it hadnt moved in a few days, but I lost almost 4 inches off my waist." She then asked me how much I said um lets see since I weighed myself last I have lost about 12 lbs this month." Then there was a pause and she says,"Oh, well I thought it would be more you know since you had the bypass." But, keep doing what your doing keep working out. Im really proud of you." WTF???  Im thinking 12 lbs, even if thats all I loose this month I will be happy with it!  Sometimes, I swear she doesnt realize her impact on me.  When I was younger I had came back from visiting my dad and she thought I had come back chubby. So from that point on from the time I was 7 until I was 18 when I moved out I was not allowed to eat anything without asking. I was not allowed to just go into the fridge or the cupboard. So, what did I do? Yep I went and hid food.  My brother and sister who are still skinny by the way who were much younger could eat whatever they wanted....But me I had to ask. I can say that it did prevent me from gaining too much weight when I was younger but I would sneak food at times.   Oh well Im learning to correct now. I just need to find a nice way to tell my mom to not say negative things to me.

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