michi
16 days since last blog
Jul 26, 2009
It's been 16 days since my last blog, but more importantly since 6/4 I have lost 10-12lbs, the same 10-12 I've beeen holding at for the last 16 days. I'm suppose to see my doc on 8/4 and he was looking for a weight lost of about 25lbs, which i thought (at the time) was way to little. So I have 2 weeks to lose 13-15lbs, oh great. So what's going on? well I have not been properly using my tool. How? mostly bad calories, grazing, and snacking, no exercise. Why? emotional...bordem, no matter what I do none of it gives me the joy I found in food, that immediate(athough short lived) satisfaction of eating, funny thing is now even eating doesn't do it, I'm full way before I'm emotionally satisfied, so I slowly keep eating, henceforth the grazing. I miss seeing my doc more often, the visits helped to keep me accountable. I have no idea how much i should or should not be eating at this point or how many calories I should be consuming, although my doc doesn't really do the focus on cal thing, he sees it from the idea if you only eat items from the list til you're full you can't go wrong. I guess what also amazes me is that I have lost inches and I haven't gained them back and I'm flucuating 1-3 lbs so why is it sometimes I feel fatter? like my stomach is bigger or I look dumpy. and for the last 11 days I have been retaining water on and off, my feet look like I'm pregnant (which I'm not). Why so emotional lately, humm... isolation, yes I'm spending more time around other people then I have in years yet I feel more isolated then ever. I've also been spending way too much time focusing on things that have little to do with my own personal growth especailly love interest. Well I'm here again which is a good thing and I want to get back on track. My biggest thing is that I get caught up in speed, patience is not my strong point. I feel like everything is just taking so long to happen, another reason I need to stay in tough with my wls program it reminds me if I am losing perspective. I had my surgery 4/27 which to date is one day shy of 3 months, yet it seems longer. 40lbs wieght lost average in 3 months is not bad and I'd gladly take another 40lbs off in the next 3 months, rather than lose nothing. :o)
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cuba, NY
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28.2
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Surgery
04/27/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 02, 2009
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