Went to the beach

Sep 07, 2009

Saturday I went  to Jones Beach. I didn't feel physically ready. I'm having a big nude issue. I'm losing faster then my skin can keep up so the remaining fat just flops around and though I'm smaller I'm flabbier and it looks horrible to me, when I was bigger I was firmer. But that aside I had a pretty good time. It was me, my girls and a good friend with her girls. I didn't move much from the comfort of the pack. My girlfriend wore a 2 piece for the first time in years , she hated her stretch marks, but decided why not she too had a huge weight loss and she had no reason to hide.  I saw lower stomach pouches, muffin/love handles, stretch marks, loose skin, flab, flat butts, flat breast  and celulitte for days,  and no one  looked as good close up as they seem to look from a far.  So nobody really is perfect and nobody seemed to care, you looked, liked or not and you move on, life goes on. So Yes I kept my still hard to face flapping thighs covered with a wrap but I let the rest hang out. I saw better bods, I even saw just as bad, but mostly what I saw was I can do this, the kids had a blast and I went to the beach for the first time in over 10 years and I wore a bathing suit , a black one with the built on skirt and I'll be going again next  year , looking better then I did this year! 

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