missjessicap
calm before the storm?
Jan 27, 2010
last time i posted i was quite frustrated obviously. I thought about it for awhile and decided to do what someone recommended i do. Lead instead of follow..Be a example for my best friend and my brother but without even doing anything my brother calmed down and is continuing his process and apparently gettin his surgery very soon. I am alil scared for him cause i feel like he just hasnt done very much for himself in getting ready for it.. just tryin to rush it. I know it seems that i concern myself too much about others but i am just venting..i know when to keep my mouth shut in real life. my best friend seems to be doing alot better thankfully.. She is starting her food journaling which i am obsessed with now. I never realized how useful it was to be able to see exactly everything u were puttin into your body everyday. But she put a application on her phone for sparkpeople and is doin it..im so happy for her to do it..i lost a few pounds just from doing that so im happy. I have been doing ok..cant seem to get past the 320 area..i cant get to 319 to save my life! its so frustrating but i know to stay calm about all that. i have so many appointments for the first week of february its crazy but do-able.The doctor said that i was a perfect candidiate for the surgery and that i was well educated on the surgery and the risks along with it. I just consider everything in life comes with some risk some more than others and its a simple choice of how u want to risk things.. I mean it this way.I can either die from my weight and having high blood pressure for a few years and destroy my heart or i can have surgery and have a chance i could have something go wrong ..its simple one or the other and i choose to take a chance for myself to make my blood pressure better..and plus i want to have a child one day i cant really do that right now either..so yeah alot going on in my head right now but nothin i cant understand on my own..nothing too serious going on lately just wanted to update everything and say im still on my way and the doctor said i would get my surgery by the time my husband gets deployed again in may. im really happy for that ..i really wouldnt want to do this without him here...xoxo
