Random thoughts

Oct 22, 2009

I find myself being discouraged at times thinking I will never reach my goal....  I hear the compliments "you look so good" You're doing so great...  then I look in the mirror... its the same face, the same fat..  just the same, but how can all those people be lieing to me?  Are they lieing? Are they just trying to make me feel better ?    Are their compliments based only on the fact that I am a nice person and they want to have something kind to say?  The scale doesn't move like I think it should, I mean I should be at least 40lbs smaller by now...  (feelings of failure set in)  I know I could try harder, or do more or make different choices...  That's where I am atm, seeking a new plan.  The band must be working or people wouldn't keep saying those things after this much time ...right?  And I want to do all i can to help it...  I want to be successful at this so very badly.

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