My computer is back up and running!

Jan 20, 2010

My computer crashed on the 12th and it is finally fixed! So much has happened. I continue to struggle without restriction. Last Wednesday I went to my first support group meeting and it was awful....for me. Although I was where I needed to be I quickly began to second guess my being there. I sat next to a really nice lady who is pre-op having the band. She was asking a lot of questions and I answered them honestly. I did not tell her all the trouble I am experiencing. I encouraged her. Then two other people sat down and started sharing their experiences. They both talked about how bad the band is and how it did not work for them. I immediately felt a huge lump in my throat and could hardly hold back the tears. Thinking again that I might have made a bad decision. I held it together until I got to the car and then lost it. I just keep second guessing myself. Then I get to work last Thursday and get confronted by the Police Chief and his Administrative Assistant telling me they want me to join the "Living Well" group they established to lose weight. The team that drops the most pounds wins. Well of course they want me on their team because they know I am going to drop weight. I excepted but left feeling stress from the pressure. I need to get over myself and start concentrating on me and stop worrying about others. I feel better this week. I went to the Dr. today and got my first fill of 3 CC's. Of course I felt the needle but they numbed the area first so it was not bad at all. I do not feel anything of course. Two days with liquids only and then we shall see. I already made an appointment for another fill on February 11th because I want to take an aggressive approach. I cried talking to the secretary Amy and the nurse Brittney. I am such an emotional mess lately. I know that it will not last so I am doing well. Hope that all of you are doing well too. Oh yeah.....we moving out of the country and back into the city. Currently driving 15 miles one way and it takes an hour. Will be driving 7.5 miles in 12 minutes! And hubby is driving 26 one way and will be driving 5! LOVE the country but will NOT miss the bugs, roaches, gnats, snakes, mice and coyote!! Here we come big city.

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