rmgerace
My rebirth day is tomorrow!
Dec 16, 2009
I am looking at this opportunity as a second chance at life, a second chance to make better choices on how I care for myself. I have been a heavy person for all of my life and I am finally in the state of mind I need to be in to leave behind the weight and the emotional baggage. I am so at peace with this choice and I am ready for any and all challenges I have to face to attain my ultimate goal, health.
I can hardly wait for morning to come...
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I can hardly wait for morning to come...
So...the big day is December 17th!
Nov 25, 2009
...at least I think so??? lol It could be December 29th if my employer has issues with the earlier date. Now that the time is getting closer, I am getting some butterflies. Still my excitement far exceeds my nervousness.
I got my chance to ask all the questions I had today and the only one I had was about the freaking drain...my mind went blank! It looks like the drain comes out after two days, just before discharge which is good since I was nervous to come home with it in. I also got some other good news, my pre-op diet will only be for 5 days as opposed to the usual 10 because I am not as large as his more typical patients. I will still not be able to partake in Christmas dinners and cookies and other goodies, but I am more than happy to trade them in for this surgery.
2010 will surely be a year to look forward to!
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I got my chance to ask all the questions I had today and the only one I had was about the freaking drain...my mind went blank! It looks like the drain comes out after two days, just before discharge which is good since I was nervous to come home with it in. I also got some other good news, my pre-op diet will only be for 5 days as opposed to the usual 10 because I am not as large as his more typical patients. I will still not be able to partake in Christmas dinners and cookies and other goodies, but I am more than happy to trade them in for this surgery.
2010 will surely be a year to look forward to!
Approved!
Nov 11, 2009
Last night, at 7pm, I got the call. When I saw "CT Surgical Group" appear on my caller Id, you'd have thought I had won the freaking lottery by my reaction! The thought never occured to me that the news would be negative. I always knew I would be approved and YES! ...I was right. I go in for my last pre-op visit on 11/25, so if all goes well, I will be starting my 10 day liquid diet and having surgery in early December.
...an early Merry Christmas to me!
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...an early Merry Christmas to me!
On the right road...
Oct 07, 2009
Here I am now, all my pre-op tasks behind me, waiting for my surgery date. It's been a whirlwind really.
I have struggled with my weight for my entire life, loosing and gaining the same 50 pounds too many times to count. Up until 2004, I lived with the idea that I was just destined to be a fat person. I accepted it, afterall, I was not vain and I was pretty healthy and active other than having some seriously crappy knees (which I contributed to bad genetics...not the fact that I was hauling around 200+ pounds of FAT). One word comes to mind...DENIAL!
Then in 2004, my life as "Cleopatra, Queen of Denial" came to an abrupt end. I was diagnosed as hypertensive. Shortly after, I began having serious issues with my triglycerides, then I was diagnosed as a type 2 diabetic. For the first time in my life I had to face the reality of the fact that being fat had made me a very unhealthy woman.
I remember vividly while in attendance at a Weight Watchers meeting, the leader once asked the group, who in the room would take a pill to magically be transformed into a thin person? My sister and I were the only ones without our hands raised. We both felt that without taking the journey from the first step, you could not truly appreciate what it would take to get to your destination. I KNEW even then I had to learn more about why I was fat, so I could change my thinkingso I could truly live as a heathier, thinner person The problem was just HOW?
Fast forward to September A co-worker whom I had not seen in a while came into our office. She had lapband surgery in April and was now down 40 pounds. I was impressed, not only by how she looked but by her great attitude. She was upbeat, positive, committed to health and seemed genuinely happy and at peace with herself. She shared her experience with me and that prompted me to attend and informational session presented by her surgeon.
I had preconceived notions of WLS being the "easy" way out. I found out quickly how wrong I was.
For three hours I was entranced and engrossed in the information I was hearing and seeing. This what not what I was expecting. Surgical weight loss was not a magic bullet, it was a tool that gave its users more sucess. It was like someone handed me a map to get me going on my weight loss journey.
So I decided to pursue WLS...lapband initially interested me. I was sure this was what I wanted, until I met one-on-one with the surgeon. For me, RNY seemed to make more sense. I understood the pros and cons to both and decided that even though I had reservations and fears, the truth was that the risks from this surgery and the lifestyle changes I would have to live with post-op were far less of a concern to me than dying from a heart attack or stroke which I felt was looming in the distance if I let things stay status quo.
Dying young was simply NOT an option. I have a family that needs me and I have many things I still want to do with my life.
So here I am, like I said, waiting to get my surgery date. I am focused and informed and ready to take the bull by the horns. My new mantra from this day forward will be "eat to live, not live to eat"...
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I have struggled with my weight for my entire life, loosing and gaining the same 50 pounds too many times to count. Up until 2004, I lived with the idea that I was just destined to be a fat person. I accepted it, afterall, I was not vain and I was pretty healthy and active other than having some seriously crappy knees (which I contributed to bad genetics...not the fact that I was hauling around 200+ pounds of FAT). One word comes to mind...DENIAL!
Then in 2004, my life as "Cleopatra, Queen of Denial" came to an abrupt end. I was diagnosed as hypertensive. Shortly after, I began having serious issues with my triglycerides, then I was diagnosed as a type 2 diabetic. For the first time in my life I had to face the reality of the fact that being fat had made me a very unhealthy woman.
I remember vividly while in attendance at a Weight Watchers meeting, the leader once asked the group, who in the room would take a pill to magically be transformed into a thin person? My sister and I were the only ones without our hands raised. We both felt that without taking the journey from the first step, you could not truly appreciate what it would take to get to your destination. I KNEW even then I had to learn more about why I was fat, so I could change my thinkingso I could truly live as a heathier, thinner person The problem was just HOW?
Fast forward to September A co-worker whom I had not seen in a while came into our office. She had lapband surgery in April and was now down 40 pounds. I was impressed, not only by how she looked but by her great attitude. She was upbeat, positive, committed to health and seemed genuinely happy and at peace with herself. She shared her experience with me and that prompted me to attend and informational session presented by her surgeon.
I had preconceived notions of WLS being the "easy" way out. I found out quickly how wrong I was.
For three hours I was entranced and engrossed in the information I was hearing and seeing. This what not what I was expecting. Surgical weight loss was not a magic bullet, it was a tool that gave its users more sucess. It was like someone handed me a map to get me going on my weight loss journey.
So I decided to pursue WLS...lapband initially interested me. I was sure this was what I wanted, until I met one-on-one with the surgeon. For me, RNY seemed to make more sense. I understood the pros and cons to both and decided that even though I had reservations and fears, the truth was that the risks from this surgery and the lifestyle changes I would have to live with post-op were far less of a concern to me than dying from a heart attack or stroke which I felt was looming in the distance if I let things stay status quo.
Dying young was simply NOT an option. I have a family that needs me and I have many things I still want to do with my life.
So here I am, like I said, waiting to get my surgery date. I am focused and informed and ready to take the bull by the horns. My new mantra from this day forward will be "eat to live, not live to eat"...
