Ryder08
1. My heart was giving out.
2. The birth of my son put me into a 4x.
3. I became a recluse and started isolating myself from the world.
4. I cried non-stop when alone then I would stuff my face with food.
5. One day, I woke and wanted to die b/c having to roll out of bed was painful. Getting to the floor to play with my infant son was too hard. I had to hire a nanny to help me with daily tasks.
6. I thought about my son and I reached out for help.
7. Through therapy, we discussed medical help. I joined a medical support team to help me begin the process but still I gained. I still was secretly eating alone.
8. Once I got in control of why I was doing this behavior. I investigated WLS fully. First, I was going to be banded, but the fear of something foreign in my system didn't sit well with me. SO, I decided on RNY.
9. I had a fall in the kitchen that tore my menses in my knee. I couldn't even pull myself off the floor. Thinking it was my spinal cord, I had to have firemen come to the house to pick me up. The embarrassment from that alone made me sign the dotted line.
10. Being an older mother, 40 yo, I will be almost 60 when my son graduated high school. I don't want to miss that special event. I had to live for him and not just me.
11. My son is now two. I had my surgery Oct 4th, 2010. I can't wait to finally have a family photo taken since I haven't had one taken since 1999. On a rare occasion did someone actually get me in a photo. And I want to smile again and look in a mirror and see the real me for once.
