1.3 pounds away from my first goal.

Sep 22, 2011

It was December of 2008 the last time I was below 200. I was on my way up to see my new baby twin granddaughters and to help my daughter with those two lil girls. Came back and it was the Christmas holidays. by the time 2009 hit, I was back over 200. I cried so much--I had lost almost 70 pounds since May of 2007. But slowly, the weight crept back on. 169 on Easter, 202 on New years!! What caused it?  Well, the availability of delicious food from a wonderful new man in my life did not help. I can not blame him--he did not hold a gun to my head and make me eat! But I ate and gained and got depressed once again.

My biggest challenge with this new tool?  To relearn to eat properly. I know my pouch with stretch--it has to or I will keep losing! I need to learn maintenance. I have to learn to catch and reverse a small gain. I know truly recognize I am a picking eater. My debilitating emotion is boredom. So I have to find ways to stay busy and not eat. I am thinking recognition is the first step! I want this to work so bad--I have to be willing to give up the quantity of food I eat. Right now, I have given that up. But I know now that I have to for the rest of my life. Staying compliant going to the doc will be a big help. Going to my support group is another. And this forum is my third tool to keep it off. All 3 of these with my pouch will keep me on the straight and narrow.

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