shmba023
Just thinking....
Jul 30, 2010
Well today is 4 weeks out from my surgery, and the scale is officially saying I am down 35 pounds. I must say that I really don't see much of a difference, but I am starting to get the comments about how much weight I have lost. So, there must be a noticeable change. I can say that I was able to get into a pair of jeans that were to tight, so they have just been hanging in my closet..I have been thinking about this surgery today and wondering is there anybody else out there like me. I am happy for the weight loss, and the change that people are seeing in my body, but I can't eat. I know my relationship with food has to change, but this is so hard. Plus, I can't really drink a lot. I am only eating one time a day, and I won't even call that a meal. Some days I only eat two vienna, or 1 chicken wingette and maybe a couple of spoon fulls of mashed potatoes. Everyone thinks I should be happy about this, but I don't know if I am harming myself. Plus, I don't want to go crazy and gain weight when my stomach does finally decide to stretch a little, and I can handle more to eat. Also, I can't even drink comfortably. I know it says sip, sip, sip, but sometimes even that doesn't feel good. I hate that feeling of water, or anything flowing down to that empty pouch. It sometimes gives me a nauseated feeling, then I stop drinking at all. Therefore, I am not nearly getting in the liquids or the food that I should be getting in daily. I do take my vitamins religiously, since I am sure that I am not getting the other nutrients I should be getting. I am practically living off a cup of McDonald's unsweet tea per day. I know this is not healthy, and I have to do better. I try to eat, but I get full so quickly, and since I am not used to eating anymore, I just don't bother. Plus, it is an absolute waste to try to buy food, and I am not much of a cook. And another thing, if I can't have what I want, I don't really eat anything else. I hope it will get better once I can expand my menu. But please, someone tell me I am not the only one. Is this normal? My sister did not have these problems, and she is not able to eat pretty much whatever she wants.
I guess that is enough venting, or reflections for today. I am going to be grateful and use this new tool I have to the fullest. I will be glad when I get about six months out, and I can really see the results. Whoever thought this process was the easy way out, they are dreadfully wrong. However, I think I would do it all over again.
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About Me
Montgomery, AL
Location
38.1
BMI
Surgery
07/01/2010
Surgery Date
Mar 12, 2009
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