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11 WEEKS !!!  Under 3 months!!

I have so much going on!!  The great news.... I'm down 60 Pounds!!
It feels great wearing smaller clothes!!  It was depressing getting rid of 3 garbage bags full of clothes!!  My size was a 28, but I had a few 30/32 tops also.  Now I'm in a size 20 Pant, and 22/24 tops are a little loose, but I'm not ready for the 18/20's yet.  I'm shopping & buying clothes that fit, probably more than I should but, I did just empty my closet!! I have a bunch of tops to get me by, and I've been getting by on one pair of pants in each size.  Today I finally broke down and bought a new pair of pants for work, and a new pair for the gym.  Only because I can't hold up the 28's anymore!! 

I experienced "dumping" a week ago, I don't ever want to again!! It was horrible!  I was light-headed, very weak, couldn't hear or see.  This happened when I woke up in the morning so it caught me by surprise.  I ate right away, and my symptoms improved but I was out of commission for half the day. 

I'm having troubles eating.  I still eat very, very small amounts because if I consume to much I feel the discomfort.  Most times it makes me sooo sleepy to.  I'm having trouble fighting the tiredness.  I am eating healthy, but having diffuculty with the appetite and frequency.   

Finally, I guess you could say I'm experiencing some "WoW" Moments.  Sitting in a booth at a restaraunt is not even close to an issue anymore.  In 2 of my friends cars the seatbelts just fit me before, they used to be so tight, and now there's so much room!!  I saw my reflection today in the windows of a store, and didn't recognize myself!  I was in a store today with narrow aisles and normally this is a nightmare for me.  Normally, I would have to suck in my tummy, or turn, etc. to allow another person to pass by me.  Not to mention, my belly, hips, or butt could take out merchandise on the shelves or racks.  When people passed me today, (several times) I went to move and they were already past me.  It wasn't necessary for me to change or adjust a thing!  I had a little smile today in that store just to myself. =)

I'm 41 pounds away from Onederland!!   and I'm 2 sizes away from getting out of PLUS SIZE clothes! LOL  Seeing people I haven't seen in a while, feels sooooo good.  Those are the people that step back, and make you blush a little at how incredibly amazing the change is.  So just when I was doubting that I was doing good enough.... the sun comes out.  

I'm feeling good and working hard... Kicking some butt in the gym!  I started the gym... not even 2 months ago, and my time on a mile has gone down 4 minutes so far. 

I had every intention of taking pictures today, but I didn't have the chance.  So next week for my 3 month mark, I will definitely take a few!! 

Until Next Time.... **Hugs**

I missed my 2 month update!! lol  

Well Its  been 9 weeks now... I've lost 52 pounds!! I'm just getting into a size 20 jeans... that's down 4 sizes!!! I'm feeling self concious about my body, overall I know and feel it getting smaller, but the shape & skin isn't so flattering.  I hope it improves with all the exercise i'm doing.  I'm kickin my butt in the gym 4 times a week and I'm feeling great.  Everything is going good right now, I guess I dont have much to say unless I'm complaining lol.  Hopefully when I have more time and thought about it some more I will give a better update!  Take Care, Until Next Time .... 

6 Weeks...

The last week has been horrible! I've been regretting writing this update.  I've only lost 1 pound in the last week!! I'm so discouraged.  Nothing has changed, I'm eating just as well as always, & exercising the same if not more!  I'm really hoping its because I'm developing muscle.  On the upside, since I wasn't noticing the numbers changing on the scale... I went to the store and tried on some clothes.  It is official, I am down 1 shirt size, and 2 pant sizes!! I'm so happy with that!! So I guess overall I'm doing well.  I feel great when I work out, & I feel healthier.  I don't think I'll update next week, I will wait for the 2 month mark.  Until Then... **Hugs**

OMG!! Mark totally kicked my ass this morning!! LOL  I was semi familiar with some of the stretches, exercises and machines that I did, and he could tell also.  
The hardest, hardest thing I did was.... Lieing on my stomach, on a hard wood gym floor, with the skinniest styrofoam mat....... think flying like superman, and lift both arms, and both legs as high off of the floor as possible.  Then I had to hold it for a count of 10.  Absolutely hurt my poor stomach.  All of my weight was resting right there on my incision on the core of my body.  It didn't hurt my back, or my butt or even my legs, but man I wasn't prepared for the pressure on my stomach!!  I really liked working on the machines, the big scary equipment that you have to adjust everytime you sit down.  It felt good going through it.  I think their were at least 8 machines.  I can't wait to use them again, but I have to let my muscles rest a day.  The only other bad thing was at the end he had me get on the machine I fear, the elliptical.  I can't handle anymore than a minute before my legs turn to jello and I get so depressed over it.  Then, while we were talking at the end I got so light headed & dizzy and had to sit down.  I was embarrassed. But over all it was a good experience, Mark was very helpful and I learned a lot and I'm comfortable with everything he taught me.  I have a starting point now, I will get so much better in time!!

Well I forgot to update on Tuesday, and then missed Wednesday!! So, it's late Wednesday night as I'm writing this.  Today I have a total weight loss of 36 pounds.  I saw the Dr. Tuesday I can keep adding to my diet and I'm clear for all kinds of exercise.  They told me my incision will itch for months!! Great!  I return to work next week, I can't wait, I'm so bored!!  I joined the gym tonight, I hope I stay motivated, that's my only concern.  Keep going, keep exercising.  Get toned & fit!  It still baffles me how little I can eat.  I couldn't wait to have a scrambled egg, or egg salad... and now I don't ever want to see an egg anytime soon lol.  Getting in my protein is still tough because I consume such small amounts of food in a sitting.  I'm still doing good with the vitamins.  I'm starting to notice the differences in my daily life.  I used to eat out a lot.  Obviously, the restaurants to choose from have changed, but picking healthy off a menu is difficult to.  More so because I feel like so much food will go to waste.  I can't meet people out for a drink or lunch anymore.  It makes a quick and simple get together a more complicated event.  I'm feeling sort of accomplished that I've been able to go without cookies, candy, chips, chocolate or ice cream.  There are times when I think, "oh, I want just one bite", but I am doing fine without.  It's just a big adjustment.  I don't know what else to talk about.  I have a one hour assessment with the personal trainer Mark in the morning.  I'm so excited!! I'm excited to see what he can teach me, and I'm excited cause he's so damn cute!  He's that guy in the office that is very attractive and clean cut and flirts with all the women.  Makes a big girl blush! I'm slowy approaching a need for a clothing size change.  I'm going to try and last as long as possible so I can save money.  So, you'll see me in baggy clothes pretty often lol.  Until Next Time.... **Hugs**

31 Pounds!!!  Yippee!!!

I'm so excited and happy with my progress!!

If it weren't for the side by side photo, I would tell you I don't even notice the weight loss.  My shirts are starting to feel big, but my pants still fit the same.  I only have to pull them up a little bit! lol  Everything is going well.  I'm doing everything I can to be good.  Although, I have tried a few things as experiments.  I've stayed within my sugar/fat allowances though.  I tried 1 chocolate chip cookie, no problems.  Almost half a grilled cheese sandwich dipped in tomato soup.  A half cup of cheez-its has 3 grams of protein!! lol When I went ou to breakfast I ordered 1 egg, over easy and 1 slice of toast... and left half a slice I couldn't eat.  Egg Salad on half a slice of toast is fantastic!  I had 3 sips of FLAT diet pepsi.... oh, I missed that.  I don't even care that it was flat.  I already walked my mile today, felt great so tonight I'm going to try doing it again, and step up to 2 miles in one day.  I think I am going to join World Gym, I'm not terribly fond of the idea, but the price is right.  So, if I could just develop some motivation and not allow myself to make excuses I will be ok.  The weight loss is suppose to continue at a great pace but decrease monthly.  I'm going to set myself a little goal.  I would like to lose 19 pounds by Easter, I think 15 pounds is realistic but I'll challenge myself a little.  I'm sooooo bored being out of work and I can't wait to return.  I'm very much eager for my life to get back to some normalcy.  Have a car again, work again, get into a routine with my diet & exercise.  No more craziness.  
Until Next Time..... **Hugs**

Its the 3 week update!! 

It has been a horrible week for me.  I am down 6 pounds for the week, a total of 26 pounds since surgery.  The bad news is, I was in a car accident last week, and I totalled my car.  Thankfully, I am safe & sound, with the exception of a little seatbelt pain and whiplash.  It's been a slow and sad week for me.  I'm working on another car, but things just aren't the same.  I saw the doctor and my stomach and incision are ok after having been through the accident.  I had a "dinner" the other night, 1 slice of pork tenderloin, 1 spoonful of mashed potatoes and 2 bites of green beans.  That was all I could eat, I was full!  I made 3 leftover bowls of the same amounts to eat later.  I've eaten a baked chicken finger, and a baked chicken patty.  I couldn't eat all of either in one sitting, but I got close.   It's a struggle getting in my protein, and eating so frequently.  I'm getting in my water and daily exercise though.  I can now walk 1 mile without stopping each day.  

I'm having battles with myself and others over whether or not the weight loss is visible.  Sometimes I see it, sometimes I don't.  Some people swear to me straight to my face there is a difference, and others, apologize and say  "I'm sorry I just don't see it".  Regardless of whether my weight loss is noticeable or not, I'd prefer people to be honest.  I've had insincere comments and they're very obvious.  Say it if you mean it, I'm not offended trust me.  I am looking forward to next week and taking one month pics to compare with the ones I took the night before surgery.   (not yet posted! lol)  What else can I share?  When I do eat I feel every bit of food going into me.  Sometimes it might be to big of a piece or eaten to fast and I feel some discomfort.  Sometimes I even feel pressure with swallowing water.  One ugly side effect, I burp & belch more frequently!  I wish my incision would heal faster!! It itches so much!  I feel a little discomfort at the incision when I move around.  I've had pain lower in my abdomen that I can't figure out, and if I've still got it in 2 weeks, I'm going to mention it at my next Dr. appointment.  Its not constant, I do worry a lot though.  I scare myself with thoughts of a hernia, etc.  Hopefully, I'm just a worry wort and everything is normal.  Well I guess that's enough for now, until next week...... **Hugs**

TWO WEEK UPDATE !

Well, its been 2 weeks and while I'm still losing weight its slowed down.  I've lost 20lbs!  I'm happy with an average of 10lbs. a week.  It started so rapidly and then slowed down just as quickly, leaving me a little confused.  I'm a little disappointed its not noticeable yet too.  I've started using exercise videos in the house, because its far to cold outside. 

My diet is opening up more.  I'm barely ever hungry, but the doctor wants me eating almost every hour.  That's hard!!  I have not experienced "dumping" yet.  I haven't eaten anything that didnt agree with me.  I plan to keep it that way.  The max amount of foods I can eat in 1 sitting, each item individual, and their protein...

1/4 C of Protien Cereal w/ Milk     (6 grams)
1 Scrambled Egg     (8 grams)
3 slices of Deli Ham, or any deli meat     (5 grams)
4 oz. Atkins Chocolate Shake     (7 grams)
4 oz. Carnation Instant Breakfast Drink     (6 grams)
1 Slice LF American Cheese     (5 grams)
1/2 Can of Tuna w/ Miracle Whip & LF Ritz Crackers     (7 grams)

I need at least 50 grams a day!!  I can't stand whey protien shakes!! *sigh*

I'm sure you're looking at my list and wondering about fruits & veggies.  Some fruits contain to much sugar naturally (berries) for me to consume.  I'm not allowed to have fruits with skins or seeds, no dried fruits or canned fruits in heavy syrup.  I can't have corn, peas, raw celery or carrots, lettuce, stringy veggies or anything with tough skins or seeds.   This category opens up after 4 weeks.  It doesnt give me any protein though either.

Peanut Butter is very high in protein but I can't have that yet either.  I also have to avoid "gummy" starches for 4 weeks.

My incision is healing... it itches like crazy!! I'm getting out of the house more and more.  I went to a movie Sunday and after I was so dizzy I could barely walk, I came home and got some protein in me, but I dont know why I felt that way.  I'm better now, and haven't experienced that any other time.  

I'm updating my photos today also.
Thanks everyone for all your support! **Hugs**