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Well, I thought I would do something, instead of sitting around.  I  mailed a letter to the surgeon on Friday, and a lady there called me today.  She wanted me to know they received the letter, and she'd make sure he gets it.  However, the month of December is completely booked and there's 10-15 other people that have also sent letters and asked for "considerations".  So, Dec. 3rd is gone.  She said she's been offered "first born children" from patients.  I'm glad I haven't gone as far to say or feel that, but I really want this.  I'm not discouraged because I know at least I get to have the surgery.  But I am really down about the delay.  This has become a bigger emotional roller coaster .... at the very end... than I ever expected.  I feel so silly whining & moping about my situation but its all a part of the big picture.  This web site would not be as helpful as it is if the people on it were not honest.  I am just a testament that even when everything is done by the book, and all your ducks are in a row, things can still go wrong.  Sh*t Happens!  I appreciate this  blog as a place to vent but I will take this from an emotional place of release to a resourceful, informative one.  I need to tell myself to get over it, be a "big girl" now.... no pun intended.
Moving on....Moving forward...

The saying "No News is Good News" ... Does not apply here!  I haven't heard anything yet.  So I'm still pretty upset about everything, especially since my date that I posted of Dec. 3rd is not set in stone.  Makes me regret telling everyone I had a date.  I feel like I can't be excited now.  And I was, I really was, when I got that letter of approval.   

BTW - I tried strawberry optimum protien powder with milk.  Tastes great.... but smells horrible!! *Sigh*  Next I will try vanilla powder with a banana, strawberries, some water & ice in a blender.
~ Thanks everyone that's been hanging in there with me!

Well, I've calmed down from my *Rant* a little bit.  I don't have any updates or news on the scheduling.  I'm still really frustrated with the entire situation!  

Anyway, last week I ordered samples of unjury protien powder.  (I've found out they are a pricey brand, so I won't be sticking with them, but...)  I tried the unflavored packet in my crystal light raspberry tea today.  THEY SUGGESTED this combination.  WELL.... they're right it had absolutely no flavor.  The taste was unchanged.  It was extremely cloudy & not appealing to the eye. However, either I'm the biggest baby alive or, I have a sensitive stomach,  Or.... NOSE.  This stuff smelled sooooooo absolutely horrible I was gagging on it.  I had to plug my nose to drink it!!  Then when I stopped and exhaled I could smell it on my breath and gagged again!!!  Now, what's even worse... I had only emptied half of the packet into the 8 oz. drink so it was not even a full serving of the protein!!  I have heard better stories with flavored powders, that is next on my trial list.  Hopefully, that will go much better!!  A friend has recommended Optimum Protien Powder and Designer Whey.  Apparently, they are $14.99 for a 2lb. Container.  And.... Stick to the flavored it doesn't smell bad... so they say.

Next, I figured I would try the transition to egg beaters.  Cholesterol free, sugar free, and low calorie.  6g of protein instead of 7g in a real egg.  They definitely don't taste like the real thing, but they weren't terrible.  I finished them thinking "I can do this".  No big deal.   Well, it is now 6 hours since I ate them, and I've been sick for the last 4 hours!!  I guess they didn't agree with me!!  I have this horrible heavy feeling high in my stomach that I can't get rid of!!  I can't throw up, I can't pass gas, or go to the bathroom.  And when I burp, it tastes/smells gross!!  I'm such a mess!  Never again!! 

Today I'm feeling a little stressed!  My thoughts right now are all over the place!  How much will it hurt right after sugery?  Will my relationships with others be affected?  Can I afford new clothes?  How bad will the excess skin be?  Can I meet the expectations of diet & exercise? 

Are you kidding me?!?!?!  Are you FREAKIN KIDDING?!?!?  *sigh*  Now, they say they won't officially pen me in on Dec. 3rd until my consultation appointment with the surgeon has been paid for by my insurance company.  I understand that my surgeon's practice needs to protect themselves, but nobody warned me of this!!  I thought surgery approved, mean's they're willing to pay for it go ahead with the plan.... apparently that's not enough!  

Edited my *Rant*

YIPPPPPPEEEEEE!!!  So Happy!!  Received a letter from my insurance company, my surgery is approved!!!  I was a little confused about the presentation of the letter and its contents other than approval but, after calling to check things out, everything is A-OK!!  YAY!  In this letter it appears that my date may be Dec. 3rd. (???) I haven't heard from the surgeon's office yet though, so it might not be set in stone.  

So THRILLED right now!!  : )