I started this particular part of my journey at the age of 35, but my struggle with weight began many years earlier. I've been overweight all of my life. My coping activity of choice has been food for as long as I can remember. I believe in taking responsibility for my own actions, but to pretend that life events didn't influence my behavior would be foolish. I've always been introspective, and over the years, I've discovered truths that sometimes even shock myself. But knowing these truths are the beginning of dealing with root feelings and beginning to deal with them in a healthier and more productive manner. While knowledge is power, it's still VERY DIFFICULT to change years and years of habits.
Why am I here? I'm not quite sure. I am curious and feel that taking this step is the first step to taking my life back. Not just from my affair with food, but from any control that the past has over me. I cannot change the past. I have no control over what has happened and am limited in the control I have over what happens to me. But I DO have control over how I react to it. This is as much as a self-discovery journey as much as it is quest to be healthier.