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Dec. 15th, addictions, fear
Nov 12, 2009
So I have surgery in a month!!Because my doctor has not given me ANYTHING to do pre-op, i'm doing my own thang! lol
I've been reading the book Weight loss surgery with the adjustable gastric band and it's been pretty helpful.
On Nov. 15th I'll be starting a diet to shrink my liver. In a nutshell it will be :
B: protein shake
L: Protein shake
D: Salad (letucce tomato only) fat free dressing, 1 low cal vegetable, cup of fresh fruit, and grilled/baked chicken.
Then when it's a week before surgery i'm going to do all liquids.
It's making me get a little anxious. I'm not afraid of the surgery itself. I've wanted it for so long and i'm so excited. I am afraid that I'm going to go crazy. I live an addictive lifestyle. I smoked for 6 years and now I have quit since August. (By quit I mean I haven't bought any cigarettes but have had a few on special occassions) I'm not going to have a cigarette from now on. I don't want to do anything that could sobotage my surgery. I'm also addicted to fast food. When I had a busy lifestyle with work and school it was so easy to just drive-thru somewhere and get food. It's hard to cook. I dont really know how. I go grocery shopping and spend tons of money but It doesn't last long and it feels like such a waste. Hopefully because it is pretty strict on what to eat that it will be easier for me to shop and learn how to cook.
Another thing i'm a tad scared about is that it's not going to happen. I'm afraid that I'll go into surgery and i'll have some sort of infection or something will be wrong with me. I'm finally able to get this surgery and i'm scared to death that this opportunity will be taken away from me.
I'm going to do this. It's going to be hard, I might get sad/pissed/depressed/angry/anxious but i'm going to do it.
If anyone does read this, What did you do to take your mind off of food and eating? Any new habits you picked up that have worked well for you? I like to walk but I need something more. Anyways, wish me luck.
