Momma never told me there'd be days like this...

Aug 11, 2010

Almost 4wks out and I'm not getting the hang of this yet. I'm having good days and bad but mostly just ok days. I feel depressed almost-hormones out of whack?? Is this buyer's remorse? I am super low energy lately and I really haven't been able to keep much down. I should be on purees but I think I'm going back to full liquids because anytime I eat anything that has any type of volume some or all of it comes back up. I have severe heartburn/acid reflux which I have NEVER had before. It feels like glass in my chest slowly moving up and down. Ugh. I hate being negative and I don't want to scare newbies but Ugh Momma never told me there'd be days like this! I finally found a liquid multi-v that I can take because Flinstones suck. My taste buds are completely off so everything I liked makes me nauseous thinking about it. In fact, I've had a lot of nausea lately. They say VSG has the most nausea of all the WLS and I certainly have it still. I have gone lactose intolerant-at least for now because "creamed soups" are oh so NOT a friend. I'm just not feeling very good. I've reverted to being a toddler lately. The hubs has been super frikken supportive through my childish phases though bringing me every kind of soup and protein drink and vitamin you can think of so I can try it and hopefully like it. I'm so unbelievably thankful I have him as the rock of my support system. He's amazing.

There have been positives like the weekend before my surgery I went swimming and my bathing suit was tight. THIS weekend I went swimming and it was VERY lose on my stomach and butt but not my boobs which means I'm keeping them so far! The girls are staying put! WHOO HOO! Funny thing that happened though is I wound up gluing my belly button shut with dermabond because I was afraid that even though my wound has healed that it could somehow still get infected. I almost glued my finger to my stomach trying to get it apart! I wound up not even getting in the water even still. I haven't weighed myself and I don't want to either but my clothes are QUITE loose these days.

I don't regret the surgery because I think its too soon to say something like that but I do miss eating. I miss chewing. I know that it hasn't even been 4wks since I had major stomach surgery so I need to get a little further out before coming to a conclusion which either way is unreversable but I'm taking it day by day. Even though my days seem to rollercoaster I do have more ok days than bad. I'm finding new ways to eat/drink and learning more about my body. I'm thankful I have the support system I have-my family and friends are incredible-and I can't wait to start shopping! It'll get better I'm sure of it. LOVE! 

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