Ruthie K.
Feeling a little down today.
Oct 07, 2012
Today started out as any other Sunday morning. Got up and headed out to church, met up with family for lunch after the service. That's what started it, I had been doing so good at eating my good proteins and veggies. Sticking to fruits when I have a craving for sweets. But every Sunday we go out to brunch with my fiance's family, I don't want to be rude and not eat because if I don't eat I get hungry or they pressure me to eat. On top of that they choose the mot unhealthiest places to go. For example the Piccadilly cafe'. If I do eat and get something that might not be the best thing to eat, like a very small piece of unsweetened corn bread someone will pop off you shouldn't have eaten that when their plate are full of fried, greasy, fatty foods. They complain about their weight and say I need to change my eating habits.I have fallen off my healthy eating the last few weeks...:'(
Guess what is coming up tomorrow! Yep I go to see my PCP and the old scale is sure to be there. I am so afraid that the 15lbs I lost last month is packed back on with more on top of that.
I was feeling so much better, not as much pain in my legs and knees. And getting up the stairs to go to bed was getting easier, but now I am winded buy step 8 out of the 13. I am so disappointed in myself and afraid that I might loose my chance of having surgery, or the date might be pushed off even further (haven't got a date yet though)
I also keep wondering how much longer I will have to wait for them to submit my case to insurance, and will Medicare OK it? If not then am I descended to die from my weight? They told me I would have 10 years left about 5 years ago, so time is ticking away for me. Or at least that's how I'm feeling.
I just got to learn to suck up the pain, and work harder at walking. Then learn to say no to people who want to bring me down, I know I am better than this and stronger tan I think I am. I just have to figure out my way I guess....:/
I guess venting does help me feel better sometimes....
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45.2
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Surgery
11/05/2012
Surgery Date
Oct 06, 2012
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