utleysmom
So Discouraged
Nov 14, 2009
I can't stand it. I can't get below 160. No matter what I do. I'm eating more protein. I've increased the intensity of my exercise. I run and walk now. I am so scared I will not loose anymore weight. I read all the posts on OH about everyone wearing size 4's, 6's, smalls, and mediums. I see how everyone looses 120 and 130 lbs. I read how they lost steadily for a year or more. I can't even get to 100 lbs. 97 is the closest most I've lost. I am so envious. I want this so badly for myself. I am stressing too much. I had my six months visit and my surgeon says to forget it. He says I've accomplished my goals. I no longer have health problems and I have lost 65% of my excess weight. Don't focus on a number he says. But, I weigh 160. My BMI is 29.4 (finally made it to overweight...no longer obese...on a happy note). I want to weigh 136 and have a normal BMI. 136 is the most I can weight at 5'2" and have a normal BMI of 24.9. I am eating so much more now than I was several months ago. It seem like so much more now. Is this why I can't loose weight. I am supposed to be eating 3/4 cup each time I eat. I can actually eat a little more. I have to eat 50 - 60 grams of protein now. I have to get it all from food. I would rather not eat. It just makes me want to eat more. I have started to have really bad head hunger now too. I want to eat all the time, but I am never hungry. I honestly think it is because I am so obsessed with loosing 20 more lbs. I can't figure it out. The surgeon and his nurse told me to just relax and see what the next 6 months brings. But, I can't get this off my mind. Why can't I loose? Why are the scales stuck? I want one of these 7 - 8 lb runs like I was getting several months ago. I swear I am addicted to the high I get from loosing and I can't get it back. I can't stop eating because that will make me unhealthy. I don't know what to do. Everyone says excercise more. I can't make myself. Is exercise the only thing standing between me and my goal weight? I just can't believe that. 2 miles in 30 minutes 5 times a week should be enough to keep me loosing. What do I do and how do I do it? I feel like I have done something wrong. I feel like this my fault. I even feel like I have failed. I've come so far, but to stop 24 lbs short of my goal seems like such a tragedy to me. It is just so unfair and I am so discuraged.
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NC
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28.3
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Surgery
04/02/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 19, 2009
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