10 months post op

Feb 21, 2009

I am amazed at the change in me.  I am healthier, look better and feel better.  That doesn't begin to describe what I feel like or what I look like though.  Those things I don't have the words for.  On the BMI scale I am no longer morbidly obese, merely overweight.  I can live with that.  If I never lost another pound I could live with that but I know I am still losing.  I guess my biggest struggle now is letting go of all of the years of dieting I endured.  I still subconsciously watch what I eat and end up not eating enough and feeling guilty for eating too much when that is not the case.  So, tracking has been helpful for me.  I have been using Sparkpeople.com and it helps to see in black and white what the numbers are.  I don't track anything but protein and I try to get in 120 grams a day.  I don't make it every day but I give it a good shot.

Don't know where this thing will take me but I feel better than I have felt in 20 years or more and I wouldn't change a thing.  Well, I might have done it sooner.

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