Back on Track!!!
Aug 21, 2008
I'm back on track and as of this morning I was 201.6 lbs. I weighed a few weeks ago and I was up to 212 so that was a big wake up call for me. I'm back on track with eating and started excercising again. I let summer get in the way and kept making excuses not to do the right things for myself. I also started taking my vitamins and supplements and I'm feeling so much better. Oh did I mention I rediscovered H20 again as well. I have to wonder why I sabatoge myself and my efforts with not obeying the rules. I'm also trying to view food for what it should be, I have to eat to nourish my body meaning food is fuel not medication. I'm trying not to think about food, I love browsing cookbooks and recipes but then I start thinking about food and what can I eat or what would taste good. I have also cut out all of the junk like chips, choclate, the crap that goes down easy and doesnt do anything but add fat to my body. When I eat something I try to vision this as fuel for my body and what is this going to do for me, empty calories in cookies, candy etc doesnt really do anything to benefit me so I need to get rid of it. Now I'm not saying I don't have a bit on occasion but honestly the less I eat of the stuff the less I want it. Just hope and pray I can stay on track. At this point in my journey it's mostly me working, the band does help but I'm going to have to dig in to get to goal and stay there.
Sabatoge!
Jul 13, 2008
Yes that's me lately, I sabatoge efforts to get myself to goal. Same pattern lose a bit, maintain for awhile then start packing it on again. I'm probably up to 210 at the moment and I am disgusted with myself. Why am I here because I have been making poor choices, not drinking water, not taking vitamins, eating too much junk, choclate and liquid calories and not consistently excercising. I'm barely squeezing into those size 12's now so it's time to refocus myself. I know in my heart if I do the right things I will be back down to onderland very soon. I pray to God that he will give me strength to fight my battle with obesity and get down to the 180's. I really want to have plastic surgery soon but I know I need to get back down under 200 before I consult. I havnt been here on OH too much lately as the kids are on summer break and I've been busy with them. I just thought it may help if I blog some about my recent lack of success. Thanks for listening!
Been Off Track!!!
Mar 13, 2008
! Yes I'm off track again!!! Notice I havnt posted to my blog in a month. I havnt been doing well and this week I've been into the sweets a bit too much. As you can see I havnt been tracking my food either. I need to get back on track so as I don't start gaining back what I've lost since December. I have decent restriction but I'm wondering if maybe a tweak would help? I'll make that decision next month until them it's excercise, make better choices and stay out of the flippin choclate. On a good note I bought a pair of size 12 capri's with a halter type top and I can't wait to wear it so another reason for me to stay on track. I also want to take vacations in the near future that involve swimsuits another reason to stay on track! So Vicki not to self stay away from the chocolate!!!
food journal February 11
Feb 10, 2008
Breakfast
1/2 c. Kashi Go Lean dry
1/2 medium size sf latte from DD
1/4 banana
S 1 wedge Laughing Cow
14 whole wheat wheat thins
Another Day
Feb 10, 2008
Ok, I'm back down to 198 I don't want to get back in the 2's again. I did biinge on good ole choclate yesterday but didnt eat much else to try to offset the calories. I ate 2 Reese eggs and 3 Cadbury eggs and I don't even like Cadbury eggs but they tasted pretty damn good yesterday. I will be journaling my food and excercise here daily to keep myself accountable.
Not Gonna Have It
Feb 06, 2008
No, I'm not gonna have it. It's been a week since I've blogged and I weighed 196. I havnt weighed all week, TOM was here, been indulging a bit too much and I still havnt gotten fully back with the workin out so I decided to weigh myself tonight, after I ate and the scales said 203 YIKES!!!!!! I'm currently not in Onderland and I don't like it one bit! So Vicki if you want to continue wearing your size 12 jeans and if you want to continue progressing in this battle you need to adhere to a better standard of eating and excercising and the water, vitamins etc.etc. SO GET YOUR A$$ IN GEAR!!
Ok now that I've reamed myself out I feel much better. Seriously I have got to watch it better, just a few days of not watching it have led me back to the 200's. So my plan of action is to get back on track, cut out the snacking on junk, and most importantly get back to the level I was excercising at. I'm planning on a cruise in May and I want to at least look decent in my tankini. The boys want me to wear a cutesy, teeny bikini and I told them Mommy doesnt wear bathing suits like that and they asked why???? I replied Mommy has too much stuff to wear something like that. Gotta luv those little boys.... The battle against the fat demons never ends, never ends...... I think I'm fine as far as fill goes, I'm just overdoing the junk. We'll see in the next 2 weeks what happens.
It's been a long and miserable month!!!!!
Jan 30, 2008
Well here it is January 30th, the sun is shining and it's about 65 degrees, a beautiful day. I feel like the fog is lifting. I've been in a cold, wet depressing weather, post holiday funk all month. Seriously I have not had much energy or motivation to work out like I should. Thankfully I havnt been eating too much but I havnt made the best choices. I now weigh 196 and I'm ready to keep going. I'm motivated to get in the gym and really work, I've made it this far and I'm not going to give up. I realize I'm going to have to fight the obesity battle for the rest of my life, it's not something that's just going to go away. Yesterday I did 20 minutes of cardio and 1 hour strength today I plan on doing about 1 hour of cardio and 30 minutes of strength training. I still have to say I'm so happy to have this board to rely on pretty much on a daily basis for support and inspiration.
The Blahs....
Jan 07, 2008
I have the Blahs you know when you're just not feeling stoked but not exactly depressed that's how I've been feeling lately. I have gone back to the gym but I'm not in full force yet. I tried to run a little Saturday but the air was cold and it seemed harder to me. I still havnt gotten my XMAS tree down yet hopefully this week. I havnt lost any more weight either I'm still hovering around 200. I havnt been pigging out but I've been taking some extra bites here and there and some of my choices have been a bit less than desirable. JUST KICK ME IN THE BUTT AND GET ME MOVING AGAIN..... Now I did go through some of my clothes and I have to get rid of some of the first clothes I purchased 2 years ago when I really started to go down in size they are now too big. I also am getting into some of the things I purchased that were too small so this is exciting to me. I also purchased some jeans Saturday they are Lucky Brand size 12 a small 12 I might add hopefully I'll be able to fit into them by June.
Happy New Year
Jan 01, 2008
I can't believe it's already 2008.... Well I'm glad the holiday season is over and I can get back to a routine. I've had company and we had our annual party this past weekend so I've been busy, busy busy.
I've been weighing in at around 200 my restriction is ok but I can't help but be concerned about the fact that I may have a leak. I guess time will tell. BTW I got some really nice complitments from people at my party who havnt seen me in awhile so that was a little ego boost. Oh and I got my black boots and skirt and wore them a few weekends ago and that was one of my goals so things are looking up for me.
I'm going to post some of my goals for this year.....
Run a 5k
Weigh 175
Really focus on eating healthy foods and eliminating junk
Have a professional portrait of me and the family and feel good about it
more later....
Goin Down.......
Dec 23, 2007
What a month!!!! I am down to right around 200 lbs...... I have dipped down in onderland but I'm not officially announcing it until I'm safely there as I tend to vary several lbs daily... I had the mother of all fills earlier this month which kick started my weightloss again but I was having night cough & reflux and had to have 2 unfills.. I am able to sleep now at night and I seem to have adequate restriction... I did just pig out on some nachos from Taco Bell but that will be it for today... Oh and I'm wearing some size 12's now so I'm thrilled about that. I havnt excercised much this month due to being too tight and not being able to eat and having no strength...
Till next time Merry Xmas
