Monica M.

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

Time is a funny thing. It seems like forever since i started this journey, but at the same time, its moving so quickly.

My appointment with the surgeon is tomorrow, at HRRH (Dr. Hyunh). I know I'm a good candidate for surgery, i meet the requirements (BMI high enough that i don't 'need' the comorbidities to qualify). I've had laparascopic surgery before, and tolerated that quite well.

I'm a bit nervous that i wont meet the 'behavioural' considerations, which will come into play later, when i meet the dietician and the SW. I need to work on my eating habits. These are the things i'm going to work on.

1. Chewing.
2. taking smaller bites.
3. Being conscious when i eat
4. Not drinking while i eat.
5. recording my intake.
6. getting in at least 2 litres of H2O a day.
7. starting meals with protein
8. sipping rather than gulping.
9. eating slowly.
10. reducing/eliminating sugar

Procrastination and perfectionism are two of my hurdles. I put off writing down what i was eating today, until i found the 'right' book to do it in. (has to be small enough to carry around, but big enough to fit a days worth in).
I want to reward myself for doing 'mostly ok' rather than thinking i need to be perfect. I need to find the balance between being disciplined and not being too hard on myself.


onwards and downwards. lol

Mon

I just found this place online, haven't been there, but it sounds like a good resource for getting rid of your bigger clothes that you no longer need. They only carry sizes 14 and up, which is pretty cool.

http://www.curvaceousconsignments.com

I attended the Barrie weight loss surgery support group on Saturday, which was really great. The people are nice, it's wonderful to be in the same room as people with the same difficulties as I am having, and to see people who have been down the same path as I have started. Even the skinny ones, you know that they've been where I am.
At the meeting, there was a gentleman who attended an Information Session at HRRH 3 weeks after i did, and had his appointment with the surgeon already booked. At that point, i still hadn't heard anything from them, tho i was advised that i would hear something within in a month.
I called HRRH yesterday, and left a message. Lo and behold, they returned my message!!! I now have an appointment with the surgeon on October 13, and i'll be emailed the rest of my appointment times.

I'm nervous, now. I've got to make the moves about telling my hubby and other members of my family, who i think should know.

Step two on the journey!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to that info session on August 25th, and i found that  I didn't really learn anything i didnt know already. I've done a lot of research, and learned a lot from the other gals (and guys) on this forum. The girl who did the session was kind of a newbie (it was her first) and, although she was able to give the general facts, I felt like she lacked the ability to answer any kind of in depth questions. Which was ok for me, i knew the answers, but i worried that some of the other people might not have gotten the information they were seeking. I was also concerned about the man who left halfway through. AND!!! extremely annoyed at the people who showed up AFTER the info had been given out, and wasted our time with asking questions that they would have known the answers to, if they showed up on time. (I keep having to tell myself "not my issue").

Anyway. I handed in my form, without my height and weight filled in. I don't have a scale at home, and i stupidly thought that there would be one there. I read in the forums that other people have appointments booked, who attended the same session as me. I was obsessively thinking that maybe they just tossed my forms to the side because i didnt have that info in there. I called in this morning (and got a live person on the line, who was very nice and friendly). She took my information, and said that someone should call me within a month to book my appointments. I still won't stop obsessing until i get the phone call and have some appointments booked. I just hate this waiting (weighting) part. I want to be done, farther along the road, on my way to looking/feeling normal.

I have an appointment on August 25, for an information session at HRRH. I filled out the long form of information that they requested, my health history and all that. It feels like I've started moving toward something, which feels good.

The form asks for an accurate height and weight. I haven't weighed myself since sometime early this past spring, and I know i've gained weight since then. I'm afraid to get on the scale. I'm afraid to see the number. I feel like i should probably measure myself, so i can record progress on the 'ticker' thing, but the thought of that scares me too. I understand, intellectually, that you need to assess what the problem is, actually, so that you can make steps to fix it, but it fills me with dread. I'm the heaviest I've ever been in my life, and i hate the way i look and feel. I'm obsessed with looking at the before and after pictures. I can't wait until that's me, there. Until someone is looking at me, hoping that someday they'll make it to where i am. But for now, here i am, on the sidelines, waiting to join the party.

In late March, i finally got a referral from one of the doctor's in my family health team, for wls. (My primary care doctor has refused to refer me, for years now. I went behind his back, and got the referral from another doc in the same office)

So, as of early April, the referral's been sent, and now i'm on the waiting list. I just called Humber River Regional Hospital, and they tell me that my referral has gone to a central office, with the ministry of health, and there is no way to track where i am on the list. That's frustrating. But i knew i was in for a wait.

I've only told a couple of people that i'm doing this, a close friend, and another girl who's had this done. My two daughters know, but not my husband. I don't know how he'll react, i don't know if he'll be supportive, and i can't deal with that right now.

I'd love to talk with people who are in the same position as me.