NewMe2Be72
June 4, 2012... oh my gosh!
Jun 04, 2012
Need prayers that this all works out!!
P.S if you are wondering... why so much in one day?? Because I am 2 hours away from my surgeons office and hospital where the surgery will be.
added June 5, 2012
The psych eval was set up right after... 3:30-5! YAY!! Just needing those thoughts and prayers that insurance accepts!! I cannot imagine that I could possibly get this surgery the end of this month!!
5/12/12 I'm back
May 12, 2012
Here I am... I CANNOT DO IT ON MY OWN! It has gotten so out of hand! Starting over.. I do have a different insurance, trying something new.. Looking into the vertical sleeve. I PRAY TO GOD that this insurance pays more! The last insurance didnt pay much at all.. I was looking at over 20K up front. (RNY) I have called my insurance and I had started the 6 month diet.. (which hopefully goes back a few months) I will be talking to the case manager nurse on Monday 5/14 to get the ball going. I am so incredibly DESPERATE! I am sick of spending an arm and a leg just to get clothes that half way fit.. sick of being worthless to my 4 year old. (that breaks my heart!) Sick of generally not being able to move.. it is starting to affect my job :(
Prayers desperately needed!
jan.3, 2011
Jan 03, 2011
I miss the ladies that I used to talk to on here.. but, I come on... and check out the over 50 group.. and complete jealousy and overwhelming saddness comes over me... If I had the surgery, I would probably be within reach of my goal now.
I just have to figure out how to refocus myself.. start over... I think the biggest thing that saddens me the most.. I have little to no support anymore. My husband just goes with the flow... my family all they seem to do is critisize me... for noticing that I havent lost and that I have 'probably' gained. (which I have) The weight gain and complete struggling.. is overwhelmingly depressing!! I thank God that I have my 3 year old to keep that dim light still lit. Now if I can only fan that dim light and grow it into a burning flame............
*for those that followed up on my dad... He is now stage 4 colon cancer... Well he was technically stage 4 when they found cancer in his small intestine... but, now it has moved to one of his lungs and in his liver. They let him have a few months of chemo off.. which have been wonderful.. you tend to forget that he has cancer.. For the first time in years we had a WONDERFUL Christmas.. at my parents home.. and not in a hospital. They are looking into starting him back up on the chemo... something different then the last since he had a reaction to the last one. Just please keep my dad in your continual prayers! Thank you!
March 25, 2010
Mar 25, 2010
I back go in on Mar 31st to get the rest of my stiches out.
March 17, 2010
Mar 17, 2010
~*~ Happy St. Patricks Day! ~*~
I came in here to blog about a few things... For those that were praying for my dad... and wondering about updates... He is now stage 4 colon cancer.. he will be starting chemo April 12th.. which happens to be his birthday..
I struggled in the 350's for awhile during the time my dad was diagnosed... finally made it thru.. now I am struggling to get out of the 40's.
ALSO... I go in for a hernia repair surgery tomorrow. They are hoping to do it laproscopically... but, my weight may hinder that.. also.. due to my weight.. they want to keep me overnight to monitor me. I am scared.. I have never had surgery.. although I have had a DNC done.. but, never cut open. So.. please pray for no complications and that everything will look good so I can go home on Friday. I will update as soon as I can.
January 29, 2010
Jan 29, 2010
I have never in my life.. until this past year or so... EVER felt so much like a circus freak! I have always been overweight.. people my casually look at me.. but, for the most part, I dont think that I really stood out, the way I do now.
My husband and I took separate cars today to mcdonalds, I met him there after work.. when I was leaving.. I couldnt get out of the parking lot before the tears started to flow! PLEASE God, Help me to lose this weight! I am sooooo DONE with it! I am so done with the ugly painful looks!
Dont know if anyone reads my 'blogs' anymore the way they did before when I thought I was able to get the surgery... just... perhaps getting it out in words on this screen does help release it... just getting it off my chest...
January 7, 2010
Jan 07, 2010
I am dealing with what I am making for my 2 year old.. I want that instead of what I make for myself.... not journaling and not quite getting enough water in.
Please... keep my dad in your prayers... These next few months are going to be really hard on both my mom and dad. I hope my next post brings better news.
November 16, 2009
Nov 16, 2009
I know that I missed a good 4 days of my water pills, + I didnt drink all my water. So, I decided to weigh again on Thursday... according to the scales.. I lost 4.6 lbs! Then today I weighed myself and lost another 3 lbs! that is a total of 7.6 lbs this week! WOW!
Not to mention that I am 2 and a half months smoke free!
AND... Last night I had the BEST NSV moment.... I can wear my wedding rings! WHOO HOO! I will be measuring today.. I'll come back to post the results.
Oh... that is a total of 24.8 lbs!
eta: Was measured and the results are: a loss of 21 3/4 inches! YAY!
November 2, 2009
Nov 02, 2009
eta: 370's gone FOREVER!
October 19, 2009
Oct 19, 2009
P.S Tomorrow will be 6 weeks since my last cigg! YAY!