reneemosley
8 Weeks
Jul 18, 2012
I have been exercising regularly, 2.5 mile walks on the trail with my sooo cute dog. It has been fun everyone wants to stop and pet Mocha (my beloved boxer) and it has gained me some company while walking. Sometimes this is nice but sometimes I want to sweat and breathe hard alone, with my Ipod, feeling in my own world. I have been scoping out the group classes at the YMCA and have decided to try a couple at 5:30am. This is early but I can do it and it will not interfere with my regular family and work schedule and I will still get in enough sleep.It will be a great start to my day and my goals. I will give up my coffee time but that is OK I've been doing that for too long, exercise is a good trade a couple of days a week.
Does this picture remind you of someone moving or running away? Well it is. This is almost my entire wardrobe (for Summer) packed into the back of my car. I am packing it up and running as fast as I can....to the consignment store. The ladies at consignment don't know what they have coming tonight. I have a great selection of really nice clothes I have collected over the years and none fit anymore. I'm a little afraid to buy more because the problem of everything being too big is kind of fun, and I'm a little scared (unreasonably) that if I buy a certain size I will stay there. As I pack these things up a lot of memories went with them and I got a little emotional. I realized I am running away...from my old self; from...my 300lb body; from the emotional weight it carries; from the unhappiness it brings; from the pain and lack of movement; from the belief that I can't. I am also moving, toward....A new me; toward a 150Lb athlete (my personal goal); toward health; toward healthy food relationship; toward confidence. Tonight is my appointment with consignment and I will try to keep it together but I will tell them why I have so many clothes for them...because I am also moving toward being more comfortable sharing this journey and less afraid of the humility of failure.
In Peace and Love-Renee
