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So,  I had an amazing day..... I just have to share... first off... work sucks... teaching special ed in a private Alternative school was my dream (lol) and it just is not fun anymore.... its not the kids its the admin!!!!!! I hate the higher ups!  ANYWAYS... SO... TODAY... I WENT TO THE GYM... BEEN SLACKING BIG TIME... BUT... I went today... and I could only do 30 mins on the arc... before I was exhausted... lol so far this doesnt seem so amazing huh?   LOL BUT WAIT IT GETS BETTER!!!!!!!! So... anyway I kept telling myself I have to push... i have to push... so I got off the arc trainer and said to myself... Im going to run... lol as funny as it sounds I used to be a runner in like 7th grade.  People couldnt believe I was running an avg 12 sec 100 m at my weight and with my chest... So I hopped on the tredmill... set it on weight loss and did the 2 minute warm up. After the 2 minutes, I just said Im going to run for 1 minute, see how I do.  I gradually increased speek until I was at 4.8 and did a slight jog... it wasnt so bad.. so I increased the speed to 5.1. Here I was... listening to Rihanna's "Hard" on my Ipod and actually running on the tredmill. I ran for the duration of the song and then decreased speed to a medium walk.  I smiled to myself, like YEEEEEEAH!!! I GOT THIS ....THEN... I started to run again!!!! I probaly ran for 5 minutes that time and then slowed my pace to a walk.   I decided to do 15 minutes total and ran a final 2 ins at 5.5.  SO TODAY... I RAN... WITH MY BIG CHEST LOL... I RAN TODAY!!!!! OH AND... I AM DOWN 6 MORE POUNDS SINCE THE FILL!!! Its coming off like butta baby... LIFE IS AMAZING!!!

Oh My...all day long I kept looking at the clock thinking... WHAT THA WHAT... its only 10 am... I STILL HAVE 5 MORE HOURS HERE... This week has been so long and stressful for me... Since my fill I have had a lot of restriction. That does not mean I am not hungry... So today I told myself I was gonna eat... so i had literally a half of a half of the little weight watchers pizza... now I know its carbs... but I was starving... lol after chewing the first bite until it was mush, I swallowed... I decied to wait a little before taking the next bite, so I got up and walked around talking to my students.  As I went to sit back down, I got this horrid pain in my stomach. Not that the food wouldnt go down because believe me it did... but I had to go to the bathroom soooo bad! *TMI* sorry.  I am the type of person that CAN NOT... I REPEAT... CAN NOT use a public restroom.  Even at work... its a man down situation LOL... So the rest of the afternoon, I put a movie on for my class and got some TUMS from the nurse and waited it out. THANK GOD, after the last child was dismissed, my boss let us go early! I rushed home... and unfortunately... have not been able to relax. My stomach is killing me... is this gods way of telling me I shouldnt have eaten that pizza??? If so... never again!!!!! I had planned for a lovely evening of partying with friends LOL because I need a night out... Was thinking Moscato and dancing.. but now... I am thinking pepto and sleeping! 

ANYWAY, Some great news... I am still planning on going out despite my stomach.. Ill figure it out! The great news is...my mom bought my sister these HOT Baby Phat Jeans last year for Xmas... and I was thinking these are an 18, I should be able to ft them, well I tried to pull those bad boys up, and they wouldnt go past my legs.  My mom and sister tried to explain to me that designer jeans usually run small... and that I shouldnt worry about it it was prolly a 14/16 in reality. I cried my eyes out.  So yesterday, I was sifting through some stuff and I found my sisters pants. I decided let me try these on now... HONEY!!!! When I tell you... I pulled em eup zipped em... and did the harlem shake, the jerk lol and popped locked and dropped it to the floor! THEY FIT AND LOOK AMAZING!!!!!!!  

Today was dress down day at work, so I wore the babyphat jeans... I work an alt. school where the kids think that all teachers are lamos lol with no life. Well one of the girls said... Ms. Jackson, your jeans are so hot! And you look so good in them, you are getting SKIIIINNY! Of course I was beaming because the kids are ur worst critics, but I smiled and said thanks, I have been working out a lot lately... gotta get healthy... and kept it moving, all the while smiling from ear to ear.  So tonight, Im gonna pair them wth a different shirt and its MOSCATO MAMI here I come! 

I have been rambling... anyways.. have a happy and safe FRIDAY!!!

So, today I got it!!!! LOL I am so happy.... but now im at 5ccs and I DEFINITELY can feel it!!!  I am working so hard guys!  Hvae a great day!!! 

I have been so stressed out lately! If it wasnt for the gym, then I know I would be as big as a house... I am scheduled to go for my second fill but the 200 cost is killing me!!!! I am going to go and just pray they make an error in billing LOL... I am almost down 40 lbs and my 16 jeans are fitting loosely... although the numbers on the scale keep fluctuating, I think that I am losing inches.  This insurance mess has me a MESS lol, and Im stressing... I often start to cry because I feel like I got this surgery for nothing, because Im telling you guys... I am busting my ASS in the gym, and often go to bed early lol so thaT I wont succumb to my hunger... lol waking up in the morning and being able to see my "GOODS" is all worth it though!!!! LMBO! Anyways... I feel like I have been neglecting my OH page...but just been busy... I was looking at the pics I posted and am pleased with my "shape" *smile*  although I do have a pic on here which I look thinner but I was actually 10 lbs heavier... camera definitely does wonders! OHHHH Great news... as I stated above, I am in a size 16 jeans... which fit comfortably... all my 18s are just a wreck LOL... BUT I GOT A MEDIUM SHIRT FROM NY AND COMPANY... it does kinda run bug but even so if I could get a large from there, Id be grateful!!!! So... as I look over this I am blabbing... but thats ok first thoughs are always the truthful ones... Ill let you know how tomorrow goes...

So I was looking at my last post and realized I messed up.... it has  been 2 months and 17 days since my surgery... and I am now down 33 lbs... I have had the most trouble losing over this holiday and I got my first fill and have no restriction at all... pissed because my drs office told me to keep exercising and itll happen for me... I am also still pissed at the fact that my job switched from amazing insurance to the most shitty insurance on the planet and my fills are 200 bucks... and I dont know if that includes the office visit.... so I am now going to the gym 5 times a week for an hour or more... its kicking my butt and I dont see the results on the scale but Ive been measuring and the inches are coming off.... cant wait to get this second fill so I can be more successful! 

Hey guys... sorry that I have not been on here in a while... I have lost 31 lbs officially and today is my 3 mnths surgiversary!!! So Im excited. Im a little disheartened guys... I lost my AMAZING insurance only to switch to AETNA which covers NOTHING associated with bariatric surgery. So, Im devastated.... fills at my office at 200 a pop... it seems as though I did this for nothing. I cant even get the care that I need from my doctors.... so im in this alone...

So, I have had so much stress this weekend... I have decided to say eff the BS and start worrying about me... I am  making it my goal to get out of the 230s !  I may be crazy, but my plan is to work out every day this week an hour and 15 mins. I just want to be 225 by the end of this month... thats 7 lbs... so I got some hard work to do.  I am going  shopping for the first time this weekend... I plan to party it up on the day before Thanksgiving...(not to drink... just to go out and have fun lol ) So Ill keep you posted... hopefully at this point Ill post new pics for everyone to see!!! Hope you all had a great weekend... and have a happy monday! 

So, I am down 20 lbs guys!!!!!!! And so excited! Ill be a month out on Friday... and things are going well... Im telling you guys... the gym is the gosh darned key!!!! When you work out, you feel good, and you see the weight coming off! LOL my gut is slowly but surely disappearing LOL!!!!!  Also, I wanted to say thanks for all the encouraging comments! Its wonderful to have a support system! Ill keep ya focused!!!!

Okay so I went for my followup on tues... and the dr. was pleased with my progress. I am a little nervous because my first fill is not scheduled until december 8.... and I can finally eat food... well soft food but its food nonetheless... I am going to have be in the gym for serious! LOL... I had the worst experience with chicken on Tuesday... the pain was so intense... I didnt want to eat another thing!!!! I am still recouping from that! Its been liquids for me!!!! Anyways... after losing the 16 pounds... I feel great lol and I feel like I have a waist... everything was all blobbed together and now I am confident in the clothes that I put on... looking forward to losing more.  I went to the gym Monday and today... for an hour ... did the tred mill and elliptical machine... i am trying to work up my stamina so that I can do 45 mins each... maybe I am pushing too much but I need to get in the habit of hard work! Anyways guys just wanted to update my progress! 

Okay, so its Thursday... and I had to take off work today because I had the most unbelievable shoulder pain! When does it end?  Also, I have been running like non-stop! My sister had her first child on Tuesday night... so I was there the entire day!!! It was exciting, but when I tell you guys... I have been so exhausted lately! I feel as though I have not properly rested! The weight is still coming off.. which is awesome, but I still just want to relax and I want this FRICKIN  shoulder pain to stop. It just like stops me dead in my tracks and I want to do nothin but take a pill and go to bed. I have been doing well though guys! The incisions are healing well I think, My belly muscles are just soooo sore.  Its all worth it though! Im gonna end each blog with a good note... When I had my surgery I was wearing size 18-20 jeans... mostly 20's (made me sick when I had to buy my first pair... jumped from a 16 right up to a 20 lol ) anyways... My mom bought me these really cute  size 18 jeans for Xmas but I was so depressed that when i buttoned them, by belly got the LARGEST muffing top ever lol So, I packed em away with the all the rest of the stuff I used to fit. I now can button em... and they rest nicely on my hips... 9 days out and besides this shoulder B.S. I am a happy camper. Go for my POST OP on Tues... Ill keep ya informed... Oh and BTW lol Sat... I can eat FISH lol cant wait!!!! OMG... See ya all later!!!!