It definitely is a struggle with these meds--Seroquel was a bad one for me as far as weight gain before I had surgery.   I feel your pain.

I'm now up to 3 mg of risperdal per day.  I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost any more either.  I would like to lose another 20-25 pounds but I guess right now, mood stability is more important.

The mood instability causes issues with eating too.  I seem to crave the foods that I shouldn't be eating at all (and then give into the craving).    Or I have days where I don't want to eat anything at all... which isn't good either.

I'm doing the best I can to keep up with exercise to get those feel good chemicals flowing, and also to help counteract some of the lapses in good judgement about eating.

Quitting meds was not one of my best ideas, although it felt like the right decision at the time.   Getting back to 'stable' is a hard path.   At 14 months out, now I have to worry about finding the right meds for me and  that intense fear of regain every time I try a new med, and fighting those food demons that want to take over.

 

We saw some complaints about being put on hold too long for booking,  so Royal Caribbean provided a new number that goes directly to my contact's department:

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 I vaguely remember taking one of these psych assessments when I was first diagnosed with depression. I'm a weirdo in that I like taking tests like these so I'm not stressing over it.

Who else had to take one and did you learn anything new about yourself?

I've been on Zoloft for chronic, clinical depression and severe PMDD for most of 20 years. We added Wellbutrin in to help with the sex drive thing, but it made me rage, so I stopped.

Baby steps. And remember that this moment will pass. Turn off the computer and read a book, park in a different place at work. Go to a museum. Mix your life up a bit. And definitely try some other anti-depressants. There's enough of them out there that you should not have to suffer.

I know im late replying to your post, but I really dont get on the site much.  FYI... An addiction, defined by the DSMIV requires the ingestion of a substance.  Other than that it is an impulsive behavior.  AND yet they do not consider food a substance?  
Anyways, point of fact to your post, you mentioned therapy, have you looked into treatment for your eating disorder/behaviors?  Perhaps you should focus on those as sexual impulsivity (addiction?) tends to run side by side with a lot of eating disorders along with body dysmorphic disorder.  Although not actually a diagnosed disorder I think a lot of us obese persons have something along the lines of BDD where we do not actually perceive our true size until we are forced to accept the reality of it... That is how we get to 300+ pounds, because we convince ourselves that 200 is normal, then 225, then 250 etc...
I agree with you that you are enjoying the thrill of the chase, with you being the bait... It is an exciting life post op that all of a sudden you are the attractive one and you get attention.  We all experience that as having been the ugly fat one that hid in the corner, always feeling not good enough because of our weight.  We are proud of our accomplishments and want to be acknowledged for it... My advice...put your self on a pedistal.... let them look but dont touch if youre concerned... it still gives you the same feelings of the thrill of being admired... but at the same time you further validate your own self image because you are better than they are and therefore they are not worthy of you...