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Hi guys. #1 where do I find that dang ticker of mine again? I am now at 36 weeks prego. I think. Since I was taken out on disability early I lost track. I have a scheduled c-section on 8-24. I am miserable. Its almost 4am, been up since 3. I cant get comfortable anymore. I have had every textbook problem with this pregnancy, I have only had a month of not feeling like crap. I love this baby but I am so ready for it to be over. I am having anxiety over the c-section as the last time i was in the hospital was for my revision and I almost died from complications. I cry all the time now, i have depression to which I have had along time but doc wont give me meds for. Its difficult to say the least to be pregnant, not feel well and have depression. I have an amazing loving husband who adores me and I am. I am blessed with him. Im not even asking a question I guess just looking for some chat and understanding. Someone to connect with to know Im not alone in this. Oh and I had gained a total of 3lbs since Jan when we found out I was pregnant, but I lost that 3 lbs now. They say the baby is growing fine. Thats scares me too. Will post more pics when I can get them to shrink. Thanks for listening.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I had a difficult pregnancy with my second and it's hard to not feel well when all the other pregnant women (it seems) are glowing and feeling great. Hang in there.

Thank you. I told the girls at work before.."you know all those glowing, happy, im having a baby women"? "Yeah thats not me." WHile I know I am blessed etc I HATE this pregnancy. I have been miserable non stop. So about 1/2 hr ago I started having cramping. THinking its Braxton Hicks, dont know, they only last about 10 seconds. Online says if they last for 60 seconds 5 min apart then call the doc. I am home alone as hubby just left for work. He helped me pack a bag and relax. Said Im stressing myself out which I am. I want nice comfortable sleep, not going to happen. And my kitten is running back and forth back and forth. Maybe she knows something?

You don't have much longer to go, you can do this!!  I can sympathize with your fear of having a C.  My first son was scheduled and I was terrified.  I stressed for months when they told me I had to have a C.  C sections stink.  I am hoping this time I can do a VBAC but if not I know I can do another C.  I had complications after the c and after VSG so I am with ya.  But I keep telling myself if it is better for me and the baby to have it i can do it again. 
My sister had a C-Section 2 years ago and did great.  She was up and moving the next day.  She never had any pain.

You'll do great!!
Good Luck
Brooke

With everything that is going on, don't stress the weight gain. My mom, a non-op, gained maybe 10 pounds with my sister and none with my brother. They were both healthy kids. Hope this helps some.

Hi There!  I hope you're feeling a little better today.  It's so hard having complications throughout pregnancy!  I was off work with my first one too, and couldn't get my mind off how miserable I felt and all the 'what if's??'. 

As for the depression, be careful!  End of pregnancy can be very hard for people who suffer from depression and there are a number of safe and effective SSRI's.  Prozac for one has been studies for years and years in pregnant and nursing mom's and is safe, I've used it with both my pregnancies as well as through the first year while nursing.  I'm also using it with this pregnancy.

As for the weight gain... don't worry!  I'm sure your doc is doing Ultrasounds and checking babies growth.  I was morbidly obese with the first 2 pregnancies, I lost 45 pounds through the first and 35 with the 2nd.  Delivered 2 very healthy children.

Keep posting and writing about how you feel and what you're worried about, keeping it in isn't good for you or that little one.  And hang in there, soon it will all be worth it and you'll have a little piece of heaven there in your arms!

Best wishes!!

Why won't your doctor give you depression meds? There are ones that are safe for pregnant women. I don not for the life of me, understand why these idiot doctors think it is their right to deny a pregnant person meds if they already have a clinical diagnosis. They have found that it is more harmful to a growing fetus, to have a mother who is constant stressed and depressed, than one who is on a safe dosage of medicine. Prozac is safe for you. I hope you can find another doctor, this is your body, your life and it sounds like you know what you need but are dealing with a physician who wants to play God. Try and find someone else. I have been in your shoes, still am (I have been clinically diagnosed with depression since age 13). You can email me anytime. Please, try to find another doctor.