I screwed up.

I am 5 weeks out and my nut just told me to increase my calories to 800 per day. This is in part due to the increased activity I'm doing so I need the calories. I agree with Nik that your calorie intake is too low at this stage.

You've had some really good feedback to your post. I hope you can take it to heart and look at it as a lesson learned. You didn't get fat overnight and the emotional issues that caused you to overeat don't go away overnight. I know I'll deal with my **** for the rest of my life but when I screw up, I'll hope to be able to look at it as a lesson. And to look at what is going on emotionally to trigger the need to feed.

I really applaud you for posting here. Although something inside you wanted us to beat you up for it, there was another part that was asking for help. You did the right thing, sweetie. Hang in there. Chalk it up to an A.F.G.E. Another ******g Growth Experience.

Christinalee said it best and I haven't had my surgery yet BUT I know I will probably have a day like yours and want to beat myself up. I am printing out her response and saving it for a kick in my rear when that day comes. I am sure it will.

It's a new day so what are you doing for yourself today? I hope your making it a great day!

 You didn't stretch anything.. I do think you should increase your calories to about 800 atleast with all that working out you need more and you will probably lose faster.  Everyone goes off plan, what counts is getting back on.  I personally eat a cookie whenever I want or a handful of chips or whatever it is that I'm craving that way I don't feel deprived and binge and eat an entire bag, it's all about moderation this isn't a diet it's a new lifestyle you have to have a balance of healthy and treat it's the only way the weight will stay off!!

This vet won't roll the eyes

Totally been there-- mine was on a can of mixed nuts in the parking lt at work at 4 months out. I actually called my surgeons and insisted I had broke my pouch.

If u ate 1000 calories that is still a deficit girlie and in reality make shake things up and you'll drop weight like crazy next week.

U can't undo it. Simply learn from it. Sadly, it prob won't be the last time. If anyone has ever been perfect thru all this then I'm jealous

 Chalk it up to experience and pick up where you left off.  This is a journey - who says there's not to be learning experiences along the way?  One day does not define where you end up.  When you use that one day as an excuse to do it again repeatedly however... then you can say you screwed up.

So, you slipped up one day.  One day out of many that you didn't slip up.

Besides that, you say you ate around 1200 calories.  If you're as active as you say you are, that's already burned.  Calculate your BMR and see what you'd burn if you did nothing all day.  Just laid in bed and breathed, lol.  Then subtract 1200 calories.  I guarantee that you will still find yourself in the negative.  

None of us gained weight by eating 1200 calories a day.  

You know where you went wrong, so avoid putting yourself in that position again.  When people are leaving, give them the bag of chips to take home.  

And you didn't ruin your pouch.  If you "popped" anything in your gut you'd be in the emergency department screaming for morphine. 

Tomorrow is a new day.

 In addition to the many great relies you have already received, I wanted to answer your question of "how can I eat this much at 2 months out."  it is because you spread it out over a period of time.  You cold actually eat a  HUGE amount of food if you ate something every hour or so.  That's why grazing is one of the biggest contributors (along with too many carbs) to regain.

As the others have said, cut yourself some slack.  We all mess up from time to time because none of us is perfect and because completely changing years of bad eating habits is hard.  I would suggest, though, that you consider seeing a counselor because (as a counselor myself) I see a number of things in your post -- many of which have already been pointed out by other respondents -- that will likely continue to cause you problems with this journey down he road if you do not address them.  Surgery does nothing to fix the bad habits and psychological issues that caused our obesity In the first place and dealing with those issues now will give you the best chance at long-term weight loss (and, more importantly, weight maintenance) success.

Lora