Where moderation got me ...

So this may be unpopular... but I'm not one to be quiet.  

I got to 167 lbs without moderation -- running 6+ miles a day on less than 1000 calories a day.  I'm 5'10 and this was thin for me.  I was also routinely fainting.  I couldn't stand up without getting a head rush.

I gained up to 212 lbs through eating more freely (I fell in love and stopped tracking as much).  I lifted all the weights and did all the crossfit and put on a ton of muscle and some fat.  

Over the past 3 months I have been working on finding moderation.  I'm now 193 - 196 lbs (I don't know where I will end up, but I feel effing strong and love my body rigth now).  I eat between 1000 - 2000 calories a day.  I eat healthy and I eat unhealthy sometimes too (I had a cupcake last night!).  And I climb freaking ropes for the first time in my life.  I'm not fainting when I stand up (win).  

Look at Spidey Girl...wow 

Awesome. Moderation can mean different things to different people. (like I used to think moderation was only a half cup of M and M's). So you have done it right. I envy you for being able to climb the ropes! Upper body strength rules.   Diane S

As I commented to you in the other thread - my concept of moderation was definitely broken and damaged pre-op.  For me, moderation was something like "I'll only have a pint of ice cream once a week."  Or some other stupid thing.  

At this point in my life, I'm trying to redefine, correctly this time, what moderation is.  :)

LOL yes - this was me.  Just a full bag of doritos and some candy.  But I'll just order one supersized meal for dinner and skip the extra sandwich.

Moderation is my problem, what I used to think of as eating things in moderation got me to where I am now.  I am so good at rationalizing everything, I am rarely extreme about anything.  I am beginning to see that I must become extreme about my eating habits or I will never make a permanent change.  It took me 55 years to get here, moderation will not make enough of an impact.

Maybe some day I will get to a point where I can balance it all out but from this side of the mountain I need to be vigilant.  

You make a good point.  My mouth says "moderation" but my brain just uses rationalization.  There is nothing I do moderately.  I think THAT is my greatest struggle.  Maybe in my next life...

When I read the title, I thought maybe you were spanked by the staff for something you posted here.  

It sounds like you are finding your balance.  Good for you!

Ha ha. I thought the same thing...scars from BP.