aemusevi
A little scared...
Jun 13, 2009
So.. I have been thinking about this more and more... and I am kind of scared. I'm scared for so many reasons.. 
What if this process just takes forever?
What if Health Partners doesn't approve it?
Although I am sane.. lol What if the shrink says I am crazy?
What if the dietitian doesn't think that I am making enough changes?
What if I don't lose a lot of weight?
What if I gain it all back?
What if I start to lose who I really am?
I just am not ready to fail anymore! And I am so scared that I will.
I don't want to be overweight anymore. I don't want to be "pretty for a fat girl". As awesome as Lane Bryant is, I don't want to have to shop there anymore. I want to shop at regular stores. I don't want to have to worry "what's the weight limit". I want to fit into a two piece (and I don't mean 2 big pieces either). I want to become a runner. I want to feel sexy again!
I want to be me... but better!
I have started this process...
1) Informational Meeting - done
2) Meeting with Surgeon - done
3) First meeting with dietian - done
4) Doctor referral - done
5) MMPI taken - done
6) Second meeting with dietian - done
7) 5 phone "appointments" from Health Partners - Call to Change
A) first appt - done
B) second appt - done
C) third appt - done
D) fourth appt - done
E) fifth appt
8) Meeting with Psyche - done
9)Final meeting with Surgeon
10) Surgery Date
Hopefully, everything will fall into place.. I will be praying!
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What if this process just takes forever?
What if Health Partners doesn't approve it?
Although I am sane.. lol What if the shrink says I am crazy?
What if the dietitian doesn't think that I am making enough changes?
What if I don't lose a lot of weight?
What if I gain it all back?
What if I start to lose who I really am?
I just am not ready to fail anymore! And I am so scared that I will.
I don't want to be overweight anymore. I don't want to be "pretty for a fat girl". As awesome as Lane Bryant is, I don't want to have to shop there anymore. I want to shop at regular stores. I don't want to have to worry "what's the weight limit". I want to fit into a two piece (and I don't mean 2 big pieces either). I want to become a runner. I want to feel sexy again!
I want to be me... but better!
I have started this process...
1) Informational Meeting - done
2) Meeting with Surgeon - done
3) First meeting with dietian - done
4) Doctor referral - done
5) MMPI taken - done
6) Second meeting with dietian - done
7) 5 phone "appointments" from Health Partners - Call to Change
A) first appt - done
B) second appt - done
C) third appt - done
D) fourth appt - done
E) fifth appt
8) Meeting with Psyche - done
9)Final meeting with Surgeon
10) Surgery Date
Hopefully, everything will fall into place.. I will be praying!
About Me
MN
Location
26.6
BMI
Surgery
10/05/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 12, 2009
Member Since
