September 21, 2012

Sep 20, 2012

 ....so, I am at work yesterday and get a text from Denis, the love of my life, and he tells me he is reading all my stuff on the internet.  I did not realize it would be so easy to find, lol.  I have nothing to hide, but it still made me a little uncomfortable because...well, geez...here is where I write my life.
Anyhow...Denis was mentioned in the last post...way back when we had first started dating...We are now living together, and I am living a wonderful life.  It will be a year we have been living together at the end of October, He is a great guy, and no, I am not writing this for "your" benefit Deni!  He makes me laugh almost everyday, because he is a very funny guy. He is caring, considerate, and respectful...more than anybody I have ever loved...so yes, he is the love of my life.
The kids are doing well.  Kyle now has a girlfriend that he is living with.  Cali is working, and we are working on our relationship.  He turned 26 a few days ago.  My granddaughter is 4 now.  Mom got a computer and is now learning how to navigate the world of the internet.  Ray is suppose to be paying for the divorce, but I am still waiting on this...hope I don't have to wait too much longer...I would like to put that behind me.
Weight is up...way up...I am not happy about this, but I honestly suck at dieting.. I have changed my position at work so I hope I can and will get more exersize so it will sllllloooowwwwllllllllyyyyy come back down.  I need to lose about 25 lbs just to feel comfortable, but I would like to lose 30...however I know that is asking for a lot since I am lucky to lose 4 lbs a month with serious dieting...it sucks to be insulin resistant.  It is really hard when you live with someone who has never had a weight problem...there are a lot of unhealthy foods in this house.  I must take responsibility for my own eating, so I can't blame it on anything but me.  I was working in a position that I hated at work, and took most of the summer off of work, and did nothing.  Now I have a couple different clients so I am trying to get out for walks daily...and that is 2 walks a day, as I have one client in the morning, the other in afternoon.  The problem there is that they move so slowly, it is more like a strole than a walk, but at least it is movement...where as my last position I pretty much sat on my ass for 8 hours a day. It also doesn't help that I am menopausal...the waist line just grows...shape changes....and I can see this in the mirror...I have no waist...not just because of the weight gain, but because my body shape has changed...it happened to my mother too...I guess it is just a part of aging.  Lots of hot flashes happening...but so far, very few nightsweats.

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