plugging along

Jan 23, 2011

I didn't realize it had been four weeks since I'd posted.  I come here and read your stories, yet forget to write about mine.  I'm about 7 weeks out now and I think I'm doing really well.  I've still not experienced any vomiting, but I do have nausea at times.  I've lost 24 pounds since surgery.  Some weeks I lose a lot, some weeks only a pound.  From reading your blogs it seems that happens to you too, so I know I'm not alone.  My 'small' clothes (24) are too big and I need a belt to keep my pants from falling on the ground.  I started in 26/28 so I'm happy to see some progress.  I lost 15 pounds prior to surgery so that puts me at 39 pounds in total.  People at work have just started to comment.  It was a little bizarre to me at first that I'd lost so much weight and yet nobody said anything.  Yes, I'm fat, but I couldn't believe that I'd lost 35+ pounds and nobody said anything.  So it makes me happy that people can tell now and that people have told me how good I look.  Let's be honest, we all want people to notice our accomplishments. 

I get my all my vitamins in 95% of the time and get all my water in.  I have a protein shake everyday but I still worry I'm not getting enough protein.  I saw the nutritionist last month and she said I was doing amazing and was really happy with the variety of foods I eat.  She said I'm getting enough protein, but I still worry that I'm not.  I'm starting to get anxious about losing hair.  Some of you seem to lose a lot and some a little.  I'm scared now about what will happen to me and how I will deal with it.  I don't know about you, but it hit me recently how important my hair has been to me.  When you have a big body you tend to overcompensate in other areas to make up for it.  People have told me my whole life how nice my hair is, so I'm scared about losing it.  This will be an interesting year of growth I think, both in terms of weight loss and just coming to terms with food and hair, my own issues and how friends and family relate to me as I'm losing weight.  I think my sister is jealous.  She usually doesn't say anything or ask me how I'm feeling, but when she does there's an edge to it.  I definitely do not feel supported by her.

I've noticed when going to dinner at our normal places that I no longer have to squeeze into the booths.  We're saving a lot of money by sharing one meal.  That's a nice added benefit! 

Hope you're all doing well!  Continued success!

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