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  I think Finally I may be getting better!! for the last week I have been trying on clothes, buying makeup, doing different do's with my hair and coloring it. This is starting to feel like I did when I was younger and really gave a shit about how I looked!!
  I still have a small problem with the hernia incision but it is trying to heal and if it would stop hurting I think I would feel close to normal again.
 I am not having much trouble with food anymore except for always making the good choice because with the amount we eat it sure doesnt seem like anything could hurt.
  At my last doc visit my doc said ' wow your weight loss has sure been enhanced by something'  and I looked at him and thought 'well maybe it was the second major surgery that I am still healing from!' duh
 Anyway its getting better slowly but surely; for now! 

8-22-08  Sooo today is friday. I have had a little ball under my incision for about 5 days and on wednesday it started getting red on top the incision and by the time I went to bed It had formed what looked like a little pimple. At 5 am thursday morning I went to turn over in bed and my whole stomach area, my pjs, everything was soaked! so after freakin out and freakin out my hubs I got cleaned up and went to the hospital. I have a seroma in my incision no infection. My stomach actually feels better, I feel a little better now that all that crapola has drained.
  Boy do I wish I was better so I could get on with my life!!!! Finally getting thin and my co- bids are getting better, looking better and I cant yet enjoy it cuz I dont feel good......Soon I hope

 I am to that point of- Maybe someday I will feel better-. After this surgery for the hernia I feel like I am not getting any better Or maybe I am just getting really sick of feeling sick.
  I  am trying to find a way to MAKE myself feel better but I think it is working in reverse! Talk about wondering why I ever thought this was gonna be good for me...yea, I have lost wieght and I can tell cuz my knees are already feeling better, yea, I have not had to take my blood pressure meds or my diabetic meds...but dammit I wanna start feeling good!!!!
 I would be really happy and very exited about my wieght loss if I felt like a human instead of a piece of tenderized beef!!! I am trying to be patient but I go back to work Monday and I dont think I am ready but I guess I will have to tough that out too!

  Ok, so heres the dealio. While I was in the hospital I was researching everything I could about hernias. Nothing I could find sounded like what had happened to me.
 When I had my post op appointment with the dr. I asked him about this. He proseeded to tell me that it is because my case was quite unusual. I told him 'Thats me, totally unusual" anyway..... The reason I feel my symptoms were different is because the usual hernia is a small portion of intestine that has broken thru a hole in the stomach lineing. Well mine was almost my ENTIRE small bowel had made its way thru one of these holes!!!  Now that he explained this to me and how the rest of the surgery went I am not quite as scared anymore. I am at home now trying to rest and let my body heal.

8-3-08
  Well, I am about 5 days out after hernia surgery and I thought I should blog about my experience since the last time I posted I wasn't quite coherent.
  So, Tuesday morning I was taking my shower for work and about half way thru I started feeling pukey and kinda faint. I slowed down and then went to work. I had computer classes for work that day. I made it thru about 11:00 but by that time I felt soo sick and in pain to where I could hardly walk so I told the instructor that I was done and went home. At home I tried to lay down and my stomach and back hurt worse laying down. I threw up about three times but it was only a nasty acidy liquid. the first two time I did this it kinda calmed things for about 10 minutes. since things felt like they were getting worse I called my surgeons office and they told me to go to the ER and have an upper GI. By the time I got to the ER which is only about 10 minutes from my house the pain was constant.
  The people at the ER were completely ignorant about GBS. It took them 3 1/2 hours before they would even give me any pain meds. By that time I was rocking and whining very loudly and my poor Hubs did not know what to do! During this time my surgeon was fighting to get me flown to Greely. God Bless Him!!
  I did not get to Greely until around 10:30pm. My surgeon was there waiting for me. He checked me over and decided to go in and do exploratory, found a large internal hernia and fixed it.
  Now five days later and I am very tired of feeling bad. There is not much I can do except follow my surgeons orders.
  There is one thing that keeps going thru my head...I am very scared to go home, I would like to stay close to my surgeon but I have a post op with him tomorrow and I will go over all of this with him. Including my emotions!

7-30-08
  Well they had to flight for life me to my surgeon last nite because I was in soo much pain and they were such idiots that as soon as I got to my surgeon he opened me up to avoid anymore delay to see what was wrong for real and found a Large internal hernia. He repaired it looked over it and I will be in the hospital for at least five days
  Wanted to put this in writing while it is still fresh in case it ever happens again. It was some of the worst pain I have ever felt in my life and I have been thru alot of painful events! It started kinda like a dump but quickly started blooming into full blown pain. I thru up a few times this really yucky acidy liquid and that would help some for a little bit after a couple hours that didnt even work. I'll finish this later, I am falling asleep.

7-26-08
  Well, I am doin ok. I am doin good with food and all, I dumped on my protein shake this morning and it was the worst yet...I added peanut butter to it and i think I added too much. anyway. I was nauseus, pukey, my heart felt like it was out of control and I was really getting anxious. I am missing food, and that is the hardest thing I am dealing with. I am feeling ok and my stomach is getting better. Still cant sleep on my left side.

7-18-08
  So today has been, well you can do the math. I am feeling out of sorts. I feel kinda tired maybe pukey but not really. I think this may be a bored I need to do something feeling but I really dont feel good enough to. I just tried to go outside and play ball with the dog it was way too hot and even the dog didn't want to fetch. I think the root of this may be that I am already in food mourning.

  Well, here I am trying to get some rest finally. I am still feeling ok, tired but ok.
  Just wieghed myself...ANOTHER 2 LBS. gone forever!!! -25 LBS -25 LBS -25 LBS!!!!!!! This is soo exciteing.
  I dont feel 100% or even 75% yet but I definitly dont feel as bad as I thought I would, and I will take it!! I am kinda tired and really sore but at least I am not hurting real bad. Having a few issues with sleep and not being hungry but I am working thru this.

7-12-08  I am out of the hospital and doing pretty good. Drinking these one ounce cups every fifteen minutes is kind of annoying but I have already figured out that if I nap too long I get a small headache and it is from not having enough Hydration. I will be watching that alot closer! My incisions hurt when I move to fast but thats about the extent of my trouble. Not really too much trouble. I am very surprised at this. I had a couple of friends tell me that I was gonna be somewhat worse than I am. But I am giving all the credit for not feeling too bad to the large amount of exercise I was doing before surgery. And my surgeon and his team. They have been the most coordinated team that I have ever encountered. I would highly recommend them to everyone. They were fabulous and treated me like royalty. I appreciate each and everyone of them!!!