ann M.
I am so ready to have this surgery. I went with my family and some friends to a local theme park this weekend. I love roller coasters: the bigger, the faster, the scarier, the better. I got on a ride. I couldn't get the seat belt to close. Two teen-age boys struggled with it and couldn't get it to budge. I was just too big. I couldn't ride....the walk of shame. My daughter asked if I decided the ride was too scary...Sure. The grown-ups knew the problem. Total humiliation complete. I've tried so many drastic things to lose weight. I joined the army to serve my country...uhh not really. They have mandatory weight maintenance programs. It worked for about 8 years. I would gain too much weight, then be put in the "fat boy" program and worked out until I dropped. I would lose the required weight and taken out of the program. My weight would begin creeping back up, and the cycle continued. When I was in high school I got injections, of what I'm not sure. I did lose weight, along with a racing heart and faintness. I've done ephedrine loaded pills, cabbage soup, Jenny Craig, Healthy Inspirations, Weight Watchers, and many other not so healthy things. Now my knees hurt. I'm lazy. I am always tired. I am a poor role model for my children. It is just not fair to my family. They deserve more. I want more. I need a permanent solution. I can not remember a time in my life that I maintained my weight 6 months, heck, 3 months. I've always been on my way up or down the scale. I feel so optomistic to see the veteran DS'ers maintaining their loss and still having a relatively normal family/social life. I want that.
