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1 week out and 12 days since my clear liquids began and I am down 17.5 lbs!! I'll take that any day. I can't remember the last time I lost that much. It's getting better and better. My Dr. was proud of me and said everything is great.

So, things are slowly improving. I'm sorry to all of you who have not had the surgery yet and my posts scared you to death. That was not my intention, but I'm only being real here. I want everyone to know what they're in for, because it's not all positive, at least not in my case. I will say I'm feeling better though and adjusting easier as the days go by. My 1st post-op appt. is today at 3:45 and I'm sure that will give me more inspiration once I step on those scales. I've been looking online for different protein "shots", because I'm having a horrible time choking down my Nectar Vanilla Bean. I thinks it's a mind thing too. My mother made me a pot of Lima Beans, yes, I'm a southern girl, and they were out of this world!!! I felt normal, or what I knew as normal, for a split second. I hope all is well with everyone and thank you to all of you who sent well wishes my way!!

I'm still in pain and miserable. I knew the minute I opened my eyes that I might've made a huge mistake. I'm not really happy right now. Last night was my first encounter of either eating too fast/overeating/or it not being moist enough, but I had so much pressure in my chest that I cried at the dinner table. After 20 minutes of walking and crying and swallowing, I ended up having to throw it up to relieve the pressure. It was not fun. Did I make the right decision? I'm very sad right now. This is not a way to live. I hope it gets better.

My surgery is over and I'm home now. I spent 3 nights in the hospital and all went well. I'm absolutely miserable, but I'm alive. My first thoughts were, "What have you done to yourself?" I'm suffering from a lot of gas bound up in my abdomen and of course my abdomen is very sore. I will almost say that I'm regretful that I had this surgery. I don't feel as well as I hoped I would. A lot of things are changing and I hope I can keep up. I don't want to do something to damage my outcome. Anyway, it's done, I'm recovering, and I hope to have a better attitude soon.

I'm finishing up day 4 of clear liquids and my bowels are prepped. I'm ready to get this over with. I am so miserable and hungry. I can't imagine feeling like this after the surgery. I'll at least be able to eat something. I'm really looking forward to some shaved deli turkey and some beans and cheese. Ugh, this is horrible. I am not a person with patience. I haven't left the house since Friday because of all the temptations of food. You never realize how much we all revolve around food until you can't have any. I'm so over jello and broth...GAG! I hope and pray I do well afterwards as far as no vomitting. My sister had this surgery 4 years ago and she couldn't stop vomitting or keep anything down. I hate to vomit. Anyway, I'm just waiting and watching the clock. This is misery meets boredom. Until next time...............

This is horrible. I'm so hungry. Clear liquids suck. I'm so over broth and soup used to be my favorite thing. I have 3 more days until my surgery on Tuesday the 24th. I didn't realize how much my life revolved around food. I looked forward to Friday's cause I knew we'd go get something to eat. Tonight I came home to more broth....Is this going to be worth it? 

So, I've completed, faxed, mailed, paid, and scheduled everything I need prior to surgery. Now, all I'm doing is waiting. March 24th is right around the corner. I read my binder from the Dr's office today. I'm so afraid I'm going to do something wrong once I have the surgery. I want to make sure I'm clear on everything. My work isn't very thrilled with me being off for 21 days either. I can't handle any added stress, so I'm trying to put that out of my mind. I am not looking forward to my 4 days of liquid diet and my bowel prep. I suppose I need to toughen up. I'm so excited. I think of my current everyday movements and encounters and wonder how it's going to be once I'm thin and feel better. I can hardly wait. Until next time.....

WOW!! It's one month closer. They called and scheduled me for March 24, 2009. My entire attitude has changed since the approval phone call. I have a smile on my face and actually have something to look forward to instead of a life of misery with my weight and health. I think about it constantly. I don't know what I'm in for, but I have an idea and it seems worth it. I am afraid how sad I'm going to feel when I can't sit down to a 12 oz., medium rare, new york strip with a baked potato on the side. And soup....I can't eat soup. Something about the liquids together with the solids. I love soup. There's no doubt that I'm having this surgery, but I do wonder what it's going to change for the better and/or worse.

Whoo hoo!! I received the call today at lunch. My insurance compnay approved me and I have a tentative date of 4/30/09. Oh, I am so excited. I'm hoping for cancellations or a squeeze in. I'm so thrilled. I just don't even know what to do. I'm finally going to be thin and healthy. I won't be held back by my weight any longer. I'm just over the moon. Now, the waiting begins. Looks like I'll be able to post before/after photos too. Until next time folks........

Today is my last and final appointment which makes 6 months that I've been on this journey. I've really been on auto-pilot this entire time and I haven't thought much about the outcome process. Now I'm beginning to worry. What if they don't approve me? Have I really done everything needed? Have I done enough? I haven't had any success in the weight loss department. It's hard. If it wasn't then I wouldn't be here. Ugh, I'm so worried. My insurance company has 90 days to reply. I'm going to be a nervous wreck. I want an approval right away, so we can schedule right away. I know it will not be until 2009 before I have my surgery. I have my 10 year reunion next year and I want to be thinner, so I need this right away. I'm miserable.