Later June 2nd......
Jun 02, 2008
Well not feeling much better..... Its 11 pm, nose is raw, still can't hear and nausea has set in.... this sucks only 8 days til surgery! I called the nurse and they said as long as its not an infection I should be ok by the surgery so thats cool.... no infection but ohhhh the sinus pressure....this is a kick ass kinda cold.... On to better things.... Today at work I could not get motivated but its end of the month so what choice does an accountant have.... gotta get it done. You know I was thinkin-rare but does happen- I am so not your typical accountant. They are usually dry with no sense of humor..... NOT ME. I really don't fit the roll but I do like my job. I stay fairly busy and have the best GM in the world and a good assistant. Makes work easier. Yes I am rambling- I do this from time to time. I am excited about surgery, got more nervous with the cold because that means my immune system is weak but I have a week to get it on track. Trying to finish this medicine so I can drink a shake... I am averaging two pounds a day weight loss on these liquids.... Here's to a healthier tommorrow!
Jun 01, 2008
Oh! I feel much worse today. Gotta go to work though. I can't hear out of my left ear. My throat hurts and coughing more. My chest hurts....my body hurts.... I just want to sleep the rest of the day..... Off to work
June 1st, 2008
Jun 01, 2008
I have caught a horrible cold. Thanks to my wonderful co-workers.... I am not happy with them. Surgery is only 9 days away. I hope this is not going to interfere with my surgery. I have nursed myself pretty well but I have to be careful on what meds to take. I feel like garbage but its made the liquid diet a breeze these last couple days!!! My stomach can't handle anything but liquids.
May 30th Part 2.......
May 30, 2008
Well this day has ended much better than it started.... of course it helps its Friday and I don't have to worry about work for 2 more days!
I am still hungry and tired but talking to everyone on the boards has helped. I am excited thinking about my new life which will begin in 11 days!! I am having some lean protein-I am allowed- tonight and then tommorrow all liquids and popsicles..... got to wean myself. My nutricianist said I could have chicken fish turkey or cottage cheese to releive my hunger headaches- plain. I will tonight.....
May 30th 2008
May 29, 2008
Everyone says "Carla your strong, you can do this, stay positive, your will power is amazing" Well guess what? I'm not really feeling this right now. I am hungry, very weak and tired from lack of food. I hate popsicles- which I can have all I want as long as they are sugar free- how sweet of them........ Oh I also can have a limited amount of broth and 4 protein shakes a day- how nice! Yes I am being sarcastic and rambling, but isn't that what this is for? I need to ramble. Last night I just cried- I fealt very guilty and I should have- I tasted the dinner my husband made and then realized I was jeopardizing myself. I also realized if I didn't go to bed I would eat the pasta and then really feel bad. They ate all my cottage cheese, which I like and can have small amounts off to help with hunger headaches- I wasn't happy about this. They can eat whatever they want. If I sound insane I never declared to be the opposite
I think I am done bashing . My temper is nasty right now and I'm not liking myself too much because of it- I need Calgon and a Tylenol!
May 28th 2008....
May 28, 2008
Day two of liquids...... Sucks really bad. I am sooooo hungry. I may need to eat a piece of chicken....... uugh!!! The dietician said only if its unbearable so I'll try to hold out as long as possible.
May 27th 2008
May 27, 2008
I am hungry....... I started on all liquids today for 2 weeks. 14 days til surgery!!!
I can't believe it. I am alittle nervous and scared. I guess I should do some work since that's where I am....... Can't stop thinking about the surgery......
May 22, 2008
I am tired. I need to us my CPAP equipment but its been difficault to get used to wearing it when I sleep. I'm also worried about my surgery. I have had several surgeries in my life and a couple I had some issues with- nothing severe but still all didn't go well and I just don't want this to be one of them. I am prepared either way- good or bad.
May 18, 2008
Well its about time for bed. Hope I sleep tonight. I have been on here alot since I got my date and I'm so nervous. I know I will be fine but there's always that little bit of doubt. Goodnight....
May 16, 2008
Well its 4 o'clock in the morning on a saturday and I can't sleep..... its been this way all week since I found out about my surgery date. I am tired but when I lay down I just start thinking about the journey I've been on and the new one to begin soon. Do I make any sense?