CJ P.

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I feel good today in general. Work is hectic but what's new, I'm just happy to still have a job. My energy level is up which is absolutely wonderful- for the last few months I've been dead. I need a long vacation. Hopefully I get to take one this year- last year it was about my surgery. I just wanted to post how good I feel today. L8r!

Well I have decided I need to post more often. I gave up for awhile on my weight loss. I have lost so slowly I had decided I would never get below 260. Well I am below it now!!!! I had blocked everything and stopped keeping a food diary. I started back on the food diary and walking and lost 7 pounds this week!!!! I am excited once more! It feels good to take control again. I hope everyone is doing as well!

Well I didn't post in February so I thought I should put something in here. Still crawling with my weightloss but at least I started losing again. I stopped blaming everything on myself. I sat down and wrote out everything I eat, drink and do and realized I just don't drop the weight like everyone else. My dh noticed I seemed to be grazing alot in February- he was right I had stopped journaling or anything. I guess alot of it revolves around the stress in my life right now. I come to work and never know when I get off or if today will be my last day- I go from working 8 hrs to 14 hours depending on my work load from my manager or our corporate office. I now keep yogurt in the fridge at work, no snack foods-even if they are high in protein and usually eat soup or salad with some turkey. Dinner is about the same as lunch and breakfast alternates between protein shakes and oatmeal. I take my vitamins daily so I think I'll be ok................

Well its been awhile....a long while since I posted. I've been very discouraged lately. The slow loss has taken its toll and I don't know how long I can go with the depression rearing its ugly head. I'm on meds but I don't think they're working too well. My job has become increasingly stressful due to the current state of the economy. I never know day to day if I will be employed.

I have 29 pounds to reach my first weight loss goal- well my second- I broke mine up. 50 pounds then 100 then 140-that last one is my ultimate goal!!! I am giving myself until March 2009 to reach my second goal. I know I lose slowly and have finally come to terms with this realization!! I'm happy with my results.... still trying to get used to the jiggly skin on the SIDES of my legs...its just weird but when you are trying to lose an entire other being what can you expect!!! LOL

Well I feel somewhat back on track as far as losing weight however the rest of me is still left very drained of all energy. I'm not sleeping well and it could just be the holidays coming up or the fear of our future. I hope the economy gets better or I may be out of a job soon. The only thing saving my butt is I'm the lowest paid manager. Its sad but true. This week... since Sunday night I have gotten a total of 10.5 hours of sleep, its Friday. I just can't sleep, even when I get home and I feel I'm going to drop over I just toss and turn in bed. I need to make my 6 month appointment soon. I'm 2 days late for it. I also need to start my new year out right. My resolutions for 2009 are to get at least 3 days a week in for excercise and stay in line with my plan. I have slipped bad lately but not like anyone would think, its more not excercising and testing too many waters that would hurt in the long run- I didn't even go off anything during Thanksgiving and lost 5 pounds but lately I've kind of grazed here and there on occasion.... I seem to be answering my earlier question about my sleep issues. I have a doctor appointment-PCP- on the 19th to discuss some bloodwork and removing some skin tags on my neck. I want to also get a savings account set up for plastic surgery in 2009. With what I've seen as far as cost I need to start saving now because if I lose my job I lose insurance so there's no guarantee I will have some paid for.

I've been so weak and tired. I lasted over the holidays. Ate what I wanted, lost 5 pounds but not puting it in writing yet... lately it just comes back. I keep stalling. I know too many people who've had this surgery when I did or AFTER and they've already lost 80-100 pounds. I can't clear 70!!! I keep taking away more food... still trying to keep my protein up which is becomming very difficult. I usually stay around 800-900 calories. I don't know what else to do. I'm staying off the scale until after the holidays!

I really don't want them to stop!!!
For the first time in over 10 years I lifted my foot onto my knee to put on my shoe! I know some may think oh yea thats a wow but it is a WOW! I was in shock....total shock and I did it again at work to show another co worker. I didn't have to pull my foot up I just crossed it over my knee!!! Its a beautiful thing I tell ya!!!

I had a good WOW a week ago but I haven't lost a pound in several weeks AGAIN! I don't understand. I know people who had the surgery after me and already lost over 100 pounds! I wonder if I'll even see that somedays.

I started this journey in a tight 32 pant well last night I tried on a 22 and I could get them on!!!! They were alittle snug but I GOT THEM ON!!!!! I have not seen a 22 since I had my son- he's 20! I am just in awe. I haven't lost alot of weight like others but inches are gone!!!!