Learning to live a new life

Jan 17, 2010

I know it's been awhile, but between holidays, work, helping friends and living, I've been very busy.  Went back to work on 11/30 and it has been interesting learning my job and learning what I can eat for lunch that won't wind up being thrown away.  Hard to tell co-workers that the pizza that the bosses brought in is something that I just can't eat, or the cookies that were made.  I don't want pity, I knew that I wouldn't be able to eat the same thing that everyone else does.   But it has been funny watching everyone else do the New Year's diet resolutions and then watching them give up.  I was told that I must be really dedicated to my diet routine.  No, I'm not just dedicated, I know that I have to walk during lunch and work out after work because I don't want to be back where I started from. There is a lot of have to's in my life and that is OK with me.  I don't have the option of stopping.  I like the way I can now reach behind my back and how I can touch my toes from a standing position. Stairs are as much of a problem as they have been, the fear of heights won't go away with the weight loss but it is nice not to have the extra weight behind it. 

Christmas was interesting.  I had family asking me why did I choose the options I did.  I said I was tired of being overweight and the possibility of diabetes and heart disease hanging over my head and that I wanted to feel good about everything.

Speaking about diabetes, my boyfriend found out right after Thanksgiving that he is diabetic and now has to make changes to his life.  It was a huge eye opening experience.  But I'm going to support him through this. He is learning that his eating habits have to change.  I hope that he can stick with the changes.

Luckily the whole nausea thing seems to be behind me, or at least for now.  Now let's deal with finding a new psychiatrist, the one who helped getting to the surgery is now terminally ill with cancer and now I have to build a new relationship with a different doctor.  So wish me luck. 

But I hope that the new year will be heck a lot gentler than the old one. 

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