Downward Spiral and Back in Control

Mar 04, 2009

When do you make the decision to come out of a downward spiral and be back in control?  How do you know you are going to stay on the right pathway? That answer would be worth millions to many people.  As a recovering food addict, the biggest problem we face is that food is our downward spiral but food also is a necessity in life.  No other addict can understand how this feels.  You have to have the one thing that could bring you down into the depths of hell and for this, we can never be cured of our addiction.  Cause we have to have food, but it's food that is our biggest problem. Today I sat at my desk and realized, my new job in contributing to my food addiction.  In my old job, I conquered many challenges because I set up a system/routine for myself.  Not to mention I was incredibly active in my old job, I walked a lot, ran around alot, was up and down a lot..... and it kept me going.  In my new job, I literally sit all day.  I don't have a lot of reasons to run around a lot.  With this inactivity, I have noticed my appetite has gone haywire.   When I was running around all day, I had small meals to keep up with the high activity, however, I don't run around all day in my new job, but my appetite has remained, it has not decreased.  It's a fight. 

I am fighting back.  I did a 45 minute low impact workout in tonight, felt good up till the end, I'm still fighting through the pain, I keep believing that it will get better.  I'm not going to give up.

On a side note, I'm a little miffed at a poster who accused many of us that are BOTT'ing as having too many excuses... well I have one thing to say... "Just Wait" when life kicks you square in the balls, you are gonna have to sink or swim or float.  Some people lose their will when that kick is really hard.  Can we blame them?  How can we know when we don't walk in their shoes??  We need to support each other, not BASH those who are reaching out for help.  We can support one another, and that was the premise for this board years ago.  I do want to see it stay that way.

I'm heading to bed.   Night night!

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