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July 14th I had my final visit with the "NUT". Now it's the new waiting game. Waiting, waiting, waiting. I want to call the surgeons office every minute. I want to call my insurance company to see whats going on. Tom Petty said it best "THE WAITING IS THE HARDEST PART"  Is the waiting the worst part? This is what I am pondering today.

Dani

Well today is July 6th. I have my final visit with the Nutritionist on July 14th. That's 8 days of waiting. 8 days until she turns my paperwork in, 8 days until I am starting another countdown. I find that I am counting everything. Calories, proteins, carbs, pounds, inches and even minutes on the treadmill. Just call me Count. Once again I find myself being motivated by the wonderful people on this site. Their ups and their downs. It has been a slow journey to me, but not really I only started this in April. I know I need to be patient.
Well I am off to the treadmill for my 12 minutes today.

Dani

When I need motivation, to move or not to eat, getting on OH has been the solution. I can scroll through the before and after pictures and see what I want to become. I love reading how someone is now running MARATHONS! Or they are skiing, and riding bikes. Imagine that. Running in a Marathon!
Pictures of women who were hiding behind clothes and fat. Now with new hair styles and new clothes and huge smiles on their faces. These women were me, are me, and will be me. I will be on the losers bench. I will be in the hundred club. I will have the new hairstyle and the new outfits that show everyone just who I am! I will be a motivation to other women! I will remove this unhealthy fat and this unhealthy way of life and I will do it with the strength and courage of all the women who have done it before me.
I raise my glass to you all!

Dani

 

Here I am waiting again. For some reason when I started on this path I thought that it would go fast and smoothe. Man was I wrong. I know that I did not gain this weight overnight, I know that it will take time to get insurance approval, than it will take time to schedual surgery, than the time to heal.  I know all this, I just want to snap my fingers and be on the losing side now!
On the other hand now, I have learned so much from the Holistic Nutritionist that I see. She has taught me to listen to what my body is telling me. Befrore and during meal times. I can tell now when I am hungry, really hungry and not just bored. Imagine that someone who weighs almost 275 pounds to have never felt hunger! I know how important water is and how bad soda is. I now know how important protein and good carbs are for you. I can take my time eating now. I can finally eat my food in more time than it took to prepare it. Nomore wolfing it down.
I learn from the wonderful support group at my surgeons office. How they eat, feel, and exercise. I learn about buying that beautiful dress and only being able to ware it for a couple of hours, cause you lost to much weight. I learned to have a sense of humor about your new body. I also learned that obesity is in every ethnic group and class of society. Nobody is immune to this. I am not the only one. 
I feel that I am ready for this new change in my life. I just wish my insurance company would understand that.
Oh well, maybe I will appreciate it more since I have to work so hard for it.