Week 11

Apr 15, 2014

Starting Weight: 338

Current Weight: 269

Total Loss: 69 lbs

Well, I'm in a rut.  I've been in a stall for 9 days and it's KILLING me!  I know, in my brain, that this is just temporary as I'm eating right and sticking to my plan (the first few days of the stall my protein was low, between 55 -60g, but for the last 6 days I've been up over 70g every day).  My heart and emotional self, however, are freaking out that this is it and I'm done losing.  Of course I've seen on OH how many people have this type of stall and even a lot of vets who would say this isnt' a stall at all.  But if FEELS like a stall and it's bumming me out.  I'm so caught up in the numbers right now, it's crazy.  I've been loving losing the weight and the sizes going down, having to clean out my closet and trying on new clothes.  All of that's been great, but I still have a lot of weight to lose and I think with summer right around the corner, I really want to lose as much weight as possible so that I can enjoy my first summer in years.  The summer always made me so self conscious and miserable (I'd avoid parties and get togethers if a pool or beach was involved b/c there was no way anyone was seeing me in a swim suit, I haven't worn shorts or a tank top in years and am usually covered up in black during the summer trying to "hide" my figure).  This is the first summer in forever where that's not going to be the case.  I feel great, and I'm looking better, but I'm nowhere near where I want to be and this stall is driving me nuts.

Anyways, this is suppose to be a diary for me and an honest look for any newbies who happen upon it.  This week (and last week), I'm frustrated!  I know it'll pass, but I'm secretly terrified it won't and it's kind of taking up all the space in my brain at the moment.  So, I'm upping my protein while lowering my cals and I plan on meeting with a personal trainer tomorrow.  Fingers crossed that is the jump start I need.

PS. the whole constipation issue seems to be solved.  One word: probiotics, they are miracle workers!

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