3 Years Post Op

Dec 19, 2012

So this is the type of update that most wouldn't want to post.  I'm 3 years out from vertical sleeve gastrectomy.  I started at about 403 lbs.  I got down to a low of 253 during the summer of 2011.  Over the last year or so I've gained weight.  I'm back up to 300.  It's disappointing, but there's nobody to blame.  This year has been rough I won't lie.  My dad passed away in November of 2011. My very dear sister-friend died in March of 2012. One of my dogs and her pups died in July. There has been a lot of loss.  The loss brought about a lot of grief and depression.  I had my very first panic attack in August of 2012.  It scared me and my husband and daughter.  I was off work for a while to work through it all.  While I was focusing on healing emotionally, the weight loss effort took a back seat.  As a result, I've gained.  I honestly never thought I'd see the 300 lb mark again.  I'm a bit ashamed and a bit embarrassed.  

I have also been dealing with some female issues.  In January, I will probably be having a hysterectomy.  My plan is to get my butt back in gear after the holidays.  With the surgery, I'll be down recovering for a bit, but then I plan to pick up and continue.  I need to get the weight back off and believe in myself that it can be done.

I also have plans of starting school again.  Online courses, working toward a degree in digital design...at least that's my current thought.  I'm still thinking things through so we'll see.

I am proof that weight gain after surgery is possible and that surgery is not a cure all.  It does not take away the emotional issues.  

I need to get back in the game!

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