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So the last few days have been really awful. I've been throwing up after everything I eat and in immense pain and feeling like I'd made the biggest mistake of my life in having RNY surgery. So I went to the doctor today and told them what's up and as it turns out I've developed stomal stenosis, which, as I'm sure you all know, is "a narrowing (stricture) of the new connection between the stomach and lower intestine" (http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/1900639). To be honest, I'm relieved. It's a relatively simple fix (upper endoscopy where they use a balloon to dilate it) and I'll be good as new! Unfortunately that means I'm back on liquids for the next few days :( but after that I should be able to handle some real food! Yes!!!!!!!!

So, I was really dreading Thanksgiving. Yesterday was my 22nd birthday as well, so I was feeling a little depressed about not being able to eat or drink anything. Some of my family was very insenstive and unsupportive (even asking me what kind of birthday cake I wanted -- I'm only 2.5 weeks out from surgery -- and then complaining that there wasn't any!!!). But I am very pleased to say that I got through it and had a wonderful day. I had just a taste of the mashed potatoes, yams, and green beans, and my gram even made me a special pumpkin pudding that I could eat! It was all so delicious and I can't believe how satisfied I felt. No head hunger, no regret, no feeling left out. I was so pleased and excited with how the day went I couldn't even get to sleep until 5 this morning! I might as well have gone out for Black Friday shopping! Anyway, I just wanted to take a minute to say how pleased I am with how things are going and express how excited and thankful I am for this surgery. I hope everyone else had as great a day as I did!

-Andrea

So I don't have any friends on here yet, so I don't really know who I expect to read this, but here it goes anyway.

I am 12 days out from surgery today. I think I'm still trying to wrap my head around what I've done and what I'm going through. So far I've lost about 21 pounds. I don't know if that's more or less than the average, but I feel great about it. I'm walking at least a mile every day, trying to remember to eat, and trying not to go crazy in my apartment all day!

I'm starting to feel the post-surgery depression that my doctor told me is common, and blogging about it and hopefully making new friends on this website will help me combat that a little. It's been so long since I've made any friends I think I've forgotten how to. For the last couple of years I've pushed people away so much that I'm afraid I won't be able to get close anymore. I hope that's not true.

Anyway, I'm trying to be optimistic and just keep trucking. Thank God I'm off the clear liquid diet and am allowed to have soft foods now. I'm really enjoying experimenting with different flavors and textures and I've even been trying out different soy and tofu products! My fridge is jammed full of tupperware containers since I can't finish anything I make, and since I can only eat so much at a time, I want something different every meal. This morning I had cottage cheese and it tasted soooo amazing. In a few days I'm going to try making salmon (I freaking love salmon). Thanksgiving is going to be kind of a drag, but I read the article on the cover of the OH newsletter today and that really made me feel better about that.

I'm not really sure how to sign off a blog that nobody is gonna read, but that's about it for now. I'll try to keep this thing updated and going throughout my journey, if for nobody but myself. I'm excited and eager to get my life on track from here. I'm thinking about getting a tattoo to symbolize my fresh start. Is that cheesey? Oh well.